It’s been about 6 months since I realised I was in love with my best friend. Do you know what it’s like to have a secret you can tell no one about and it feels like it’s eating you up inside? That’s how I feel. I wish I didn’t love him. But love isn’t a choice right? You can’t choose who you fall in love with, it just happens. I wish I could tell him but I don’t know what I would do if he rejected me. He knows I’m gay but he just doesn’t swing that way. What would happen if I told him? Would he be disgusted? Would he never want to see me again? I don’t know if I would cope if I couldn’t see that beautiful face again.
Let me back up.
I’m Liam Payne, and yes I’m gay and in love with my best friend Niall Horan who is obviously straight.
I wish I could be happy like my two best friends Harry and Louis, they are perfect for each other! It makes me jealous sometimes seeing them so in love. Sometimes I wish I could tell them that I love Niall but I feel like if I tell someone it will become real, I want it to be real but I don’t want to get hurt, so by keeping my love for him to myself I feel safe. I guess? I don’t really know how to explain it.
Anyway enough of me!
The boys (Louis, Harry, Zayn & Niall) are coming over tonight.
I am not looking forward to it. Don't get me wrong, I love the boys but its so hard seeing him.
Authors Note:
Sorry this was so short!! I didn't really know how to start xD Can you please leave me a comment and tell me what you thought? And if I should continue with this? Please! It would mean the world :3
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Can You Ever Love Me? A Niam fanfic
FanfictionLiam Payne has a secret. He is in love with his straight best friend Niall Horan. He wish he could be happy like his two gay friends Louis and Harry but he can't keep his mind of Niall. He loves everything about him. Liam is convinced Niall will nev...
