Red

Chapter eighteen

The next couple of days me and ally dodged each other.

I stuck with Camila since Lauren and normani where on vacation in North Carolina.

"You guys are still dodging each other" Camila asked sitting down next to me in the library.

"She won't talk to me , so I won't talk to her" I shrugged.

"You look like a zombie" Camila said peeling her banana.

"Thanks" I rolled my eyes.

"Do you think she was ashamed of me , of being my girlfriend" I mumbled.

"What" Camila asked.

"At one of the parties she announced me as one of her friends , she said she wasn't used to calling me her girlfriend" I shrugged.

"I don't know dee, why don't you talk to her" Camila frowned.

I shook my head. 

"It hurts, to talk to her, she hurt me" I said.

"We should head somewhere else" Camila said glancing in the corner.

I turned my head and saw ally reading the jacket of a book.

"Yeah, come on" I said getting up.

I glanced at ally and she glanced at me. She put the book down and walked towards me.

"Can we talk" She gulped.

"Dee" Camila said.

"I'll, I'll catch up with you camz" I said.

"Ok" Camila said grabbing her bag.

"You wanted to talk" I asked.

"I'm so so so sorry Dinah" ally whispered.

"Were you ashamed of Me" I asked.

"Not of you, I - it's just - I can't - it's hard to tell people your gay you know" ally whispered.

"No it's not ally, it's either you are or you aren't , if you can't come out that means we can't be together, is that why your going out with Jake" I Asked crossing my arms.

"I'm sorry Dinah , I just - I'm not ready to come out yet" she gripped her bag.

"Well when you decide don't even bother coming to me" I said grabbing my bag and I walked out of the library.

I ran to the bathroom and locked myself in a stall. I broke down crying. 

I put my hand over my mouth and slid down the wall.

"Dinah" Camila knocked on the door.

"Come on, let me in" she said.

I opened the door and she came in. She sat down next to me and laid her head on my shoulder.

"I'm sorry Dinah , you deserve everything" she sighed.

"Thanks" I grumbled.

"It's hurts" I licked my lips.

"I know , it's going to" she said.

"You know , this happened to me before" she took a deep breath.

"What" I asked.

"I was in ally's position" Camila said.

"With who" I asked.

"Lauren" she looked away.

"Is that what happened with you guys" I asked. She nodded.

"I wasn't ready then I guess" she shrugged.

"You know she says she doesn't know you now" I laughed wiping my eyes.

"I know , that's Lauren for you" Camila softly smiled.

"Do you miss her" I asked.

"Yeah" camila looked at me.

"I tried to move on, but it's hard" she shrugged.

"Give ally time" Camila added.

I nodded. Camila stood up and offered me her hand.

"Let's get out of her and go get ice cream , we can both use it" Camila gave me a goofy smile.