𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒏𝒆𝒘 𝒈𝒊𝒓𝒍

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I was by myself at the house just cleaning up and finding some of my moms things or basically using some of her things and then I don't give it back probably but yeah just cleaning up

Now the hardest part in this house, my room and I haven't cleaned my room since I even came back home from Puerto Rico but I wanted to get it done

While I was listening to music and looking through my closet finding a big red box and I really didn't know what was inside it but I put it on my bed and just find more things in my closet that I didn't even know I had in there but I just wanted to clean up my room before I open them

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I finished my room in two hours and now I was ready to open the boxes on my bed

I went through the first box and seen papers and drawings that I had in pre-K and kindergarten and I just laughed about the the sentences I said on those papers and now the second box and seen that it was pictures that were from pre-k going to like sixth grade and I was balling my eyes out just crying and laughing

I then seen one more box and it was a Nike box that I had when I was the fifth grade and I was really nervous to see what was in it so I closed my eyes and opened and the and eyes widen in shock

" What the hell ? " I whispered to myself just picking up the rubber bands of money in my hands when I see a note at the bottom of the box and that's when I start crying

Dear Ciara,

This is your dad and I know that I'm going to be somewhere up there and I just want you to know that even before your mom ever had you I was destined to know that you were my babygirl and I was going to love you forever

So in this box is all for you when you go to college and travel the world like you told me when your just five years old and said you would always take me with everywhere you

I know that when I'm not here anymore I'm always going to be your guardian angel up above so I'm watching every step of the way

I love you so much my little babygirl

Love your dad

I closed up the note wiping up the tears from eyes and my face just chuckled to myself reading the note hearing my dad say those things about me made me know that he never left me and that he's still watching over me

I now put the my money box under my bed and put the rest of my boxes back into my closet and just watch videos on my phone until I fell asleep

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I woke from my nap already on my phone just reading text that missed and texted them back and just put my phone on my bed and went to the bathroom

I washed my face and just stared at myself in the mirror seeing my eyes are still red and a bit puffy I just went through my drawers to find a wipe when I find. a razor two them and picked on up and just looked at and I hesitated and just put up on my arm just started cutting my arm seeing the blood on the sink and what was it that I didn't really hurt from when I did it before

" Honey are you ok in there I brung back some McDonald's if your hungry " I hear my mom say from my door and I hurried and put everything in the drawer and wipes of the counters and put on my hoodie to cover up the cuts and I went downstairs to the kitchen saying " Sorry I was in the bathroom doing something... so where's my food " I looked through the bags and found some fries

" Are you... doing it while I was gone Ciara ? " I hear my mom say behind and I turn around with a tear coming down on my face and she cane towards me hugging me until we were both on the floor crying

" What happened while I was gone Ciara just tell me " She said rubbing my head

" The Nike box that I found in my closet was money that dad was giving me for college and traveling and taking care of you and Noel and he wrote me a letter... he said he's my guardian angel "

" He will forever be our guardian angel "

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