mirrors • • Han Jisung • • Felix

5

They had fun at the arcade. Felix even got to see his September buddies beautiful smile. He hadn't seen a real on in a while. He went home to see a few members on the couch waiting anxiously.
"Ah feli- Jisung?" Minho said confused.
Chan burst through and hugged Felix, causing Felix's and Jisung's hand to disconnect.

Jisung felt warmth leave him. A few colours started to fizzle into grey. He could see that he wasn't wanted around. He walked away. But Felix had grabbed his hand before he could leave. Leaving the members confused.
"Sungie" felix grabbed the others reconnected their hands.
"I'm sorry you get treated like this" Jisung fell quiet in the others arms. "Like I said, you have me now" he brushed the hair out of jisungs eyes. Jisung let what felix was really saying sink in. He didn't know why but he couldn't smile. He didn't want to bring Felix into this. But if he told him not to, he could lose him. He started to shake.
"Sung! Jisung whats wrong?" Felix quickly shook the other out of his state.
"B-but the guys were worried about you a-and it's my fault it's always my fault! if I wasn't stupid and said had instead said no, they would be happy and so would you an-"
"what about you?" Jisung froze.
What about him? Did it matter? He felt a hand stroke his cheek. Something wet dragging along the thumb. He was crying? He didn't even notice.
"C'mon sungie" felix brought the other to the kitchen.
"Why the kitchen?" he mumbled out. Felix brought out a bag of chips. Jisung shook his head. Nearly vomiting at the sight.
"No..I can't- I'll get fat! and.." he didn't finish.
Felix looked mad and jisung panicked. Oh no what had he done, what did he say?
"No, eat or I'll get fat" Felix shoved the pack at him.
"But you cute when your chubby" Jisung argued.
Felix sighed.
"Eat or I'll eat an unhealthy amount of them and get sick and if the only way I won't get sick is by you eating this packet" he tried.
Jisung gulped and took the packet, not wanting to get the other sick. Felix beamed.
"Eat" was all he said before getting himself the small snack packs of chips.
Jisung smelt it. It made him dizzy. He took one and reluctantly placed it on his tongue. Suddenly he had swallowed it. His mind went blurry and suddenly the packed was finished. He was hungry. He remembers what that is. He hadn't noticed but for a month or maybe 2 he had been feeling it.

"When was the last time you ate?" Felix asked concerned.
Jisung looked up in thought.
"Apart from water i had on Tuesday... so 2 days ago, then before that it was another day and" he started to recall the small meals.
"JISUNG! What if u died? what if you starved yourself?!" Felix shouted. Forgetting of the other members. "Well I would be skinny-"
"and what! You'd be skinny so what!?" He yelled.
Jisung had tears in his eyes.
"I-I thought that maybe if I got skinnier and pretty you all would like me" he cried.
Sobbing into his hands. Tears he didn't know he had left. Felix grabbed the other gently pulling him into a hug that Jisung immediately melted into.
"I'm sorry.." Jisung mumbled apologise profusely with a sad and quite breath.
"Stop apologising..what are you even sorry for?" The question was left unanswered.

Changbin opened the door. Felix glared at the other. Changbin was still in disbelief. Maybe the other was lying. But as he got a better look he did look..skinnier? His back was small. His arms thin and his cheeks empty. Maybe...it's their fault. Ever since Felix spoke up to him about it, it's been echoing in his head.
He should've noticed sooner.

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lol pretty sure this is failing but I guess I expected that haha
(Sorry if there are any mistakes/misspelling)

Xx luv you all mwah!