Beys POV
Right after I walked out of the bathroom, I went to jays studio where I knew no one would be and scheduled an appointment for therapy for Thursday at 3pm. Then I texted my mom to ask what prison was my father located. When she told me in Huston I just made the decision that when they go back I will too and visit him. They said they were going back on Saturday so I'd have some time to prepare myself.
Anyways after I was done calling everybody I just sat back on the couch that he had in the and closed my eyes for a quick second. I took a deep breath in and exhaled slowly. Then I opened my eyes and looked around, Ive been in a studio before when I actually tried to make that music thing work but I just wanted to see if I still had it.
I went into the booth and put the head phones on then pressed a button that played a smooth simple beat then I pressed record and closed my eyes and just sang what ever came to my mind.
I thought that things like this get better with tiiime,
But I still need you, Why is that?
And your the only image on my miiind,
So I still see you, Around
I miss you, like everydayyy, I wanna be with you, but your awayyy
Said I miss you, missin youu insane, but if I got with you, wouldn't feel the same.
The words don't ever seem to come out riiiihght, but I still mean them, why is that?
It hurts my pride to tell you how I feel, but I still need to, why is that?
Its like I zoned out and I knew exactly what words to say next. this all was coming from my heart and I just had to get it out.
I miss youu, like everydayy
Wanna be with you, but your awayy
I said I miss you, missin you insane
But if I got with you, could it feel the same?
It don't matter who you are
It is so simple, I feel it
But it is everything, no matter who you love
It is soo simplee, I feel it
But it's everything
I miss you, like everyday
Wanna be with you, but your away
I said I miss you, missin you insane
But if I got with you, could it feel the same?
I finished the sighed and opened my eyes and saw jay staring at me through the glass. He flipped a button then began to speak.
"You wanna talk about it baby?" He asked and I nodded slowly. Surprisingly I wasn't feeling sick anymore I guess that medicine actually helped.
He sat on the couch and patted next to him telling me to come over and sit. I took the head phones off and walked out of the booth and sat next to him and leaned on him as he wrapped his arm around my shoulder and pulled me closer to him.
"So what's up baby, who you write that song about? What happened while you were in that bathroom? And why did you come in here?" He asked and I just picked my head up And looked up at him because I didn't think he herd me when I was in the bathroom or even knew I got out of bed until he woke up
"Uh I didn't know you herd me. I just needed a second to cry alone and get all my tears out, I just want to better myself and be happy, that's all I want. And I'm really about to start trying." I told him and he nodded
"So your not happy now?" He asked and I shook my head.
"I'm happy at certain moments, like when I'm with you, or with my family. Or when I'm doing what I love weather it's singing or delivering babies. But it's not a everlasting thing like I want to continuously be happy like I don't want to depend on others to get happiness, I want to have so much that I can share it. I don't know how to explain it." I said getting discouraged because he didn't say anything for a minute
