i need more time with you before i lose you but i don't know how much longer i have.
i love you so much.
please don't just disappear.
don't just blow away like smoke and air.
i need you. i need you and your wisdom and kindness and unconditional love.
i don't know what i would do without my second mum.
i hate this feeling
waiting for something terrible to happen and knowing i can't do anything about it.
and i can't stop thinking about you and everything you used to have ahead of you.
but there's this boy, anita, and he's been here before.
he makes it so much easier.
but after everyone has gone to sleep i'm just stuck in my quiet room with my loud thoughts.
it hurts.
but i don't want you to worry.
