being the fuck up of the century
doing everything wrong
never being enough
always hurting people
is fucking exhausting.
i wish i was better.
and i need a break.
why do people expect so much from me?
i'm only going to let them down.
i've been too busy ruining everyone else's lives to grieve the loss of one that was so important to me
it still doesn't feel real
i've been too busy focusing on someone i love who's terminally ill
i haven't realised that my thoughtless actions are hurting the people around me
i'm just trying to be perfect for everyone i love
it's not going so well
