Epiphany - Namjoon au

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August 28 : Tuesday

"Do you think when people die they become ghosts or they're just gone?"Jimin asked staring out at the night sky. We were all sitting in a park near Namjoon and Kook's house, even Seojun was here. I'm not sure why she was here but if it meant Namjoon was hanging out with his friends than I'm okay with it.

"Ghost." Taehyung.

"Ghost." Jungkook.

"Ghost." Me

"Gone forever." Namjoon said and I turned my head to look at him. He was lying in between Seojun's legs her hands were running through his hair. They looked in love. "There are only stories about ghosts and spirits. No proof."

"I agree." Hoseok says. He was laying on his back, his jacket being used as a pillow. "I mean it doesn't make sense. We are just an organism. A tiny plankton in the ocean wouldn't be said to have a ghost." I wasn't sure what some of the words he said meant but Namjoon was still mad at me so I couldn't ask.

"We are just organisms. Small things like ocean plankton aren't said to have ghosts." Namjoon mumbled in english not looking at me. I guess he knew I wouldn't understand the vocabulary.

"Thanks." I said awkwardly. Seojun was now looking at me with her evil eyes.

"Anyways, small things aren't said to have souls and spirits. The afterlife is something humans made to make themselves feel better over losing people because they can't handle the fact of something being gone forever." Hoseok finished still staring up at the stars. I nodded leaning my body against Jungkook's who was leaning back on his hands behind me.

"I can feel my grandpa. He's dead." I said and no one said anything. "I guess it could be a trick of the mind but even if it is, is it so bad to believe in an afterlife?"

"No." Jungkook said moving his body closer to mine. "Hobi hyung just reads to much poetry." All the boys laugh besides Jimin, he's still cuddled with Taehyung a sad expression painted to his face.

"What's wrong love?" I said in english leaning over to nudge Jimin. He looked at me and his eyes were teary. "Jimin are you okay?" His gaze worried me as he shook his head no and began to cry into Taehyung's hoodie. Taehyung ran his hands through the boys black hair as he held him close. I looked around at all the boys who were sitting up worried. We didn't say anything for a second, I wasn't sure what to say or if he was comfortable enough to talk to me. Jimin is the boy I've talked to the least out of the bunch.

I crawled across the grass to sit in front of Jimin as I rubbed his arm for comfort. He was still crying heavily, you could hear him hiccup and fight for breath every few seconds. It was heartbreaking.

"Jiminie talk to us." Hoseok said crawling to my side. Jimin looked up from Tae's hoodie with swollen red eyes and tears still running down his heated cheeks.

"I think my mom's going to die soon." Then he broke again and all the boys sighed. They knew more than me obviously. The looks on their faces was one of complete heart break, the look you get when you hear exactly what you didn't want to hear. Even though deep down you already knew it was going to be said.

Taehyung lifted Jimin to stare at him face to face. Jimin sucked in a shaky breath as he continued to fight his tears for air.

"Jimin, I need you to listen to me." Taehyung says wiping away his tears with his thumb. "I love you. We love you. We can't change the present and we can't change the past but we control the future. We will work through this and we will be with you every step of the way okay?" Jimin nodded biting his lip and Taehyung pulled him back into a tight hug.