Different

*Chapter 1

Some of the events in this book are based on a true story. The main characters' relationship is completely based on me and my ex. I do not support any toxic relationships. There's a reason I'm talking about me and my ex, not me and my boyfriend.

I decided to share the way my relationship was because I know a lot of girls and boys are in the same toxic relationship that I was in. And I know it's hard to leave. That's why I made this. To let you know it's okay to leave the toxic people or relationships behind. So you have more room in your heart to love the people that actually deserve it. An amazing woman once said: if you sleep next to someone and still feel alone, why not be alone?
And she's right. Leave until you still can. Leave before the hurtful word becomes a hurtful bruise. You don't need anyone but yourself, because you are strong and amazing and beautiful, no matter what you think of yourself.
First, you need to love yourself and know your worth until you can love anyone else. So be strong because everything will be alright.

If anyone needs a talk or an advice, my DMs are open. :)

And I can't believe I have to say this but if the book doesn't end the way you wanted it to, please don't send me hate.

Thank you

English is not my first language so I apologize for any mistakes in advance.

Enjoy!

This book is in the process of editing, as of October 2020.

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The idea that we are
So capable of love
But still choose
To be toxic.

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"Fuck that was good!" A hot girl, whose name I forgot, says panting and laying herself down next to me.

"Eh it was alright." I say, putting the bitch in her place. Getting up to get dressed, I can feel her glare burning through my back.

"Are you for real right now?" She says, clearly offended. As she should be.

Yeah that's right. You ain't special. Not to anyone, especially not to me. I know that she needs to leave or we will get into a fight.

But not yet. I'll have some more fun until she leaves.

"Yeah, you can't blow for shit and you really smell down there. Just saying."
I crunch my nose and put my boxers back on

"What the fuck? I can't believe you just said that! Why were you saying my name then while I was on top of you?" She snaps at me. Damn girl chill. Who does she think she is? Fucking Mia Khalifa?

"Well I thought you'd come and leave faster," I shrug, grabbing her ugly wrinkled clothes and throwing them on the bed. I slowly walk to the bedroom door, opening it to let her know it's time for her to leave.

Honestly, I can't stand whores, so I act like a piece of shit towards them. It's not my fault the only thing they're good for is sex. I know I'm not any better, but still.

"You're throwing me out already?" She looks at me confused, like we're doing this for the first time. "You won't let me sleep here?" She tries to make me let her stay, but I shake my head. No one ever stays here after sex. Or in general. That's my rule.

"Hell no. I'm going to take a shower and when I come out, I expect you to be gone." I walk to the bathroom, closing the door behind me and locking it.