Different

Chapter 39

I decided to make a chapter with Luke's POV too. It starts about in the middle of the chapter. Enjoy!

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We stay silent for about 10 seconds. "Luke?" I say, breaking it. There's no answer, so I sit in silence, thinking.

I have to be here for him. Especially now, that he's going to tell me his deepest secret. At least I think it is. The way he's been hiding it, I'm pretty sure it is. Maybe, it's his worst memory. He finally trusts me enough to tell me it.

But he shouldn't trust me. I just cheated on him.

The guilt is washing over me and it feels terrible. I fucked up. Badly. And now, knowing that Jack is cutting himself because of me, this feels even more wrong. I know he enjoyed it, and I'd be lying if I said I didn't but that doesn't make it right.

"Luke?" I nudge him but still no answer.

Is he asleep?

I decide on leaving and letting him be but then he finally murmurs something. "You awake?" I ask him and he murmurs something again.

Okay I guess he's awake.

I sit next to him again and he sits too. The silence between us is deafening. Why won't he just talk? Jesus Christ.

Suddenly, he hugs me. I react, by jumping a bit, but then I hug him back. He buries his head in my shoulder. It doesn't take long until my shirt feels wet and cold. My grip around him tightens and I start stroking his hair, telling him it's okay.

"Shh."

He looks up at me. All I can see is his shadow, since it's dark but I know that his eyes are all red. I really do feel bad for him.

"You wanna tell me?" I whisper softly.

"Yeah."

I remain silent and so does he. Then, he takes a deep breath, "ever since I was little, I never had too good of a relationship with my father," he starts and I listen to him carefully.

"You see, about the time I was born, he went to jail because he did some shit. I don't know exactly what he did because he never wanted to tell me, but honestly, I don't wanna know. I do know he was locked up for 7 years. So I never really had a father in my life. We were poor. It was only my mom and I. I know she was always working so hard just to earn a little bit of money. Just so we could survive." His voice is shaky, so I grab his hand.

So he wasn't rich when he was younger? I wonder where he got all the money he has now.

"When he came out of jail, I know I was angry with him for a while. I mean, that's the first time I ever saw him and now remember it. He was being really nice. I know he was trying but I didn't care. Now, I wish I wasn't so stuck up for those few months." He's getting angry now, because I can feel his grip on my hand getting stronger and stronger.

"What happened?" I ask him quietly.

"One day - I remember it like it was yesterday - me and my dad were playing outside and then my mother called us inside, so we could all have lunch. After lunch my dad had to leave for work. When he left my mother sent me to my room. I was really confused but I did it anyways. A few minutes passed and I heard the doorbell ring. I thought dad came back. So I ran to the kitchen and there she was. My mother kissed a man. But that man wasn't my father. It was his goddamn best friend!" Luke yells. I try to move or say something but I can't. I'm in shock.

Luke saw his mother cheating?

That's something you don't forget. Or forgive.

"A-and then, like it were planned, my dad's car pulls up in the driveway. My mom sees him and starts panicking. She wanted to hide him but my dad saw it already. He freaked out and the guy went home. I was so scared. They were yelling at eachother for the entire day. Then dad lost it and went upstairs, where I was. In my room. I heard the door shut and then all I could hear was my mom's weeping. Like she cared. Fucking cheating bitch." After that he stops talking. And I looked at him.