A second chance

Chapter 9

Anyone else have those days where you know you have to go to bed, but you dont want to ? Well I'm having that feeling now. It suddenly hit me that I was going to sleep in between two godly men ...... someone help. I had decided that we would bring Ange in with us in the alphas room with a crib. Which he seemed totally fine with as he immediately fell asleep in it, they were all such good babies but a part of me wanted at least a little resistance. Maybe then I wouldnt look as dependent on them.
"Do you sleep in anything particular Ri ?" I nervously looked over at Seeril as he rummaged through a large wood dresser.
"Um... a, a shirt ? I guess ? I slept in what I could wear." He looked at me, his eyes softened in sadness.
Keanai wrapped his arms around me and kissed the side of my head softly.
You would think that this would be seen as pity, maybe a little ... but I could feel that they weren't judging me. They were treating me .... I dont know .... is this what it feels like to be pampered ? Loved ? Feel, special ? I hope it was. Because it felt .... amazing. I wanted this feeling to last.

"Is this ok sweetness ?" I looked at Seerils pick.
It was a large t-shirt with some type of logo on it, and a pair of what looked like boxers. I took the clothes and slipped into the bathroom, slipping off the old leggings and the v-neck and into the sleep wear. It in short terms drowned me I fabric. I wasnt that short I was about average height for a human. You usually think werewolves were all super tall and muscular ? No. Weres genetic makeup was similar to humans, our ancestors thought the reason we could change shape was that we were cursed. While others thought it was an evolutionary choice somehow. I never really knew what to believe all I knew was that I was part wolf.

So in short I was average but somehow these two were too mutants.... perfect mutants. I came out of the bathroom to find two perfect beings in boxers ..... only boxers. I felt my face turn lobster red, and I hid my face behind my hair.
"Um .... thanks for the shirt." I shyly looked up and both of them looked like they wanted to eat me.
If I could turn redder I did and shuffled to the edge of the bed. I felt the bed dip next to me on each side. I hid my face in my hair as an arm slowly slipped around my waist. Seeril slowly pulled me to him and set me on his lap, god this felt embarrassing. I fiddled with the hem of the shirt and kept my eyes in my lap.
"Riku, look at me." I hesitated.
"Please." I slowly looked up at him.
His eyes, god both of their eyes, when they looked at me they could put me in tears. They looked at me, like I meant something. I know, I dont pity myself, but I knew that I was never seen as anything .... good. Back at that god forsaken pack house, I was seen as nothing more than an object. But when they look at me ..... I dont even know how to describe it. I dont. It's something I've never had, and I ..... I want to keep it. So badly..... is it wrong of me to want it ?

Seeril looked at me, his face softened and relaxed. He stroked my cheek gently and nuzzled his nose in my hair.
"God your perfect. To us your perfect." I felt Keanai run his fingers down my back and sides.
You ever realize that you were going at a furious pace for a long time ? And when you finally stop, you realize how exhausted you actually were ? When I met these two, it was like I finally could actually relax.... and then I realized how burnt out I really was. I was just, tired. So I let them hold me and lay me down, I wasnt nervous anymore .... maybe on some level I already trusted them. Keanai slept behind me his chin on my head, Seeril slept in front of me with an arm gently around my waist. It felt nice, to be touched like this, so i just closed my eyes.

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Ange was crying. He was probably hungry, I was about to get up, when the bed on my one side lightened.
"What's the matter baby boy ?" Seeril.
He went over and I listened as he picked up Ange and held him.
"There there your ok pup, your ok. Dont cry ok, let mommy sleep." My eyes betrayed me dammit I wanted to stop crying.
Ange settled down and all I heard was quiet purring, and I felt the bed eventually dip again, and as the night went on we switched places. Now Seeril was behind me, but it was still the same feeling. I was brought to Keanai's chest and I drifted back to sleep. I woke up alone, the covers pulled over me, Ange was still asleep in the crib. I looked at the clock it read only 7:30, I slipped out of bed and into the bathroom. There was a pile of clothes on the sink, i took them and slipped them on. Maternity Jean's and a soft sweater, it stretched over my tummy but it still looked and felt nice. I went to Anges crib to find him awake, sleepily sucking on his little fist.
"Hi baby boy." I leaned in and picked him up gently.
He happily grabbed onto my hair and played with it.
"You sleep good baby ?" I nuzzled his soft baby hair.
I shuffled out of the room and peaked in to check on my pups. They were all still sound asleep, I was relieved that they were able to sleep in the beds alright. I held Ange in the crook of my arm and went downstairs, I heard noise from the kitchen as well as the living room, and I also heard movement from the backyard. I decided to go to the kitchen to get food first then I would try to find the alphas later if I could.