Bunch of MENDOZAs

Chapter 51

And I ended it with the words, "but we really can't be together."

His eyes widen even more and his mouth gaped. "I thought..."

I gently pushed him and wiped my tears. "Brile mahal talaga kita. But this can't be. Ang daming nasasaktan kapag tayo. I don't like things in a complicated manner. In fact, malay natin hindi talaga natin mahal ang isa't isa. Brile months palang tayong magkasama... siguro pag alis niyo magbabago rin yan."

Yes I love him. Yes I can't do it without him, but it's only for now. I can get through him. Besides, in the first place hindi ko siya dapat hilain pababa. He doesn't deserve me.

"Please Xyzzy..."

He tried reaching me but I stood away from the bed, from him. "Brile, that's our last kiss. I don't want you to get near me again. Or you will all go back to America anytime."

"Xyzzy don't do this." He begged and stood, trying to get to me.

"Brile umalis kana please. Trabaho ko lang kayo." I used my coldest voice, I swear.

Nasasaktan ako habang nakikita ko siya na nakatitig sa 'kin habang malungkot ang mga mata niya. But we really cannot be.

"Xyzzy I love you."

"I know Brile. But enough. Hindi ikaw ang sisira sa pangarap ko na makapagtapos na buo pa rin ang tiwala at suporta sa 'kin ni Mr. Nick."

A tear falls from his left eye as he tightly closes his eyes and turns his back on me.

He slammed the door close and seconds later, I broke down.

Oh god. Guide me with my actions.

"Good morning boys." I greeted with enthusiasm as I put down the plates with their foods.

Dahan dahan naman silang umupo habang titig na titig sa 'kin... oh, except him who has a blank expression.

"Hmm, may mga balak ba kayong puntahan? The weather's good and I bet you wanna hang with your girls." I asked with a smile and sat.

Lumiwanag naman ang mga mukha nilang lima na nagpangiti rin sa 'kin.

"You'll gonna let us?" Masayang tanong ni Rain at mas tinitigan pa 'ko.

I nodded with a frown. "But, before 6 dapat nandito na kayo at i-update niyo 'ko. Lalo kana Aki..." I look at Aki with a sweet smile. "I know that your girl is here is in the country and pumayag si Mr. Nick na doon ka muna sa kanya kahit hanggang bukas ng hapon."

And I saw his sweetest smile ever. "Thank you Xy."

"Unfair. Dapat kami rin."

Napairap ako sa reklamo ni Breii. "Breii, napakalapit lang ng Mavie mo. Don't worry guys, pati bukas papayagan ko kayo ulit lumabas. Napaalam ko na lahat. 'Wag lang kayong gagawa ng ikabubuntis ng mga babae."

They all made a face with what I've said. Bahala sila.

"Lalabas din naman pala bukas. 'Di nalang kami hinayaan ngayong gabi." Bulong ni Rain habang kumukuha ng apples.

I just rolled my eyes. "Si ate Jenny na ang bahala sa bahay mamaya since aalis rin ako." I told them.

His eyes are on me and I couldn't just look back so inintindi ko nalang lahat ng mga kailangan kong ibilin sa kanila.