i swear i fucking have to have stress toy or something to calm me down when i'm angry because i have this obsession for digging my fingers/nails into my skin either lightly to prevent myself from crying or REALLY FUCKING HARD TO PREVENT MYSELF FROM SCREAMING WHICH DOESNT WORK AND LEAVES MARKS ON WHERE I DID IT!
like now, i have a mark on my upper left arm and a small mark on my right side of my waist because of this stupid fucking shower hose not connecting to the fucking taps when i need to wash my hair, got my sister to do it because she's stronger than me, apparently i made her bleed because i'm too weak? and now she's in a 'mood' 😒
listening to: Meet You There - 5 Seconds of Summer
