MAKING MEMORIES

Chapter 11 : REALITY BITES ME

XIA

I can't really sleep last night and today my head is hurting so much that i really think i will get sick. My body feels so weak and everything around me just keep spinning. But i still make it to class and meet Hye Joo's worried expression. I can't focus at all. I dont know what my body wants. I can't sleep when i have been trying so hard to sleep last night and i didn't eat anything too during breakfast. A glass of juice also just makes me feel like i want to throw up.

I keep thinking about him. Jaeyoung sudden change and his high voice in my head. Did i do anything wrong? Any bad rumours about me that makes him mad? What is really happening? I also can't stop wondering how he has been doing today. Does he remembers anything about last night? Did he arrives home safely? I think so? Because if he's not, his friends might have call me right?

During lunch, when we enter the cafeteria, Lei suddenly appears infront of me and grab my wrist. I look at him, asking for an explanation.

'Let's eat together. Theres no porridge here. I bought porridge for you. Sit with us. You too Hye Joo,'

I have no energy to say no and i really in the mood to cling on my brother today. I see all of the boys are there including Sanchai. She must just arrived too because she is about to put his bag down when i take a seat beside her. I look at Ximen, who i thought will look at me and remind me about last night but he didn't. He just focus on his food instead while playing with his phone.

Sanchai rub my back while giving me a smile and ask, 'Are you okay?'

I just nod. I took the porridge that Lei prepares for me and start eating while Sanchai and Hye Joo go and buy their own food. They are all so quite. Ximen and Meizou are busy playing games with their phone, Ahsi is checking on papers that i think his assignments while Lei is focusing on his food.

I can't stop thinking while playing with my food. I still dont feel like eating. I really want to know what is going on. Jaeyoung also don't leave me any messages or give me a call. I can't help but thinking that he doesn't really care what i have in mind and how i feel. Or maybe he cares but he needs some space? I don't know what to do. I want him to talk with me if he has anything that bothering him. I want him to know that i care and i will always listen. But at the same time i don't want him to yell at me again and feel annoyed.

'Xia, what are you doing with your food?' Lei's question brings me back to reality and that's when i realize that half of my porridge is gone, and it's on the table instead.

'Oh my god im sorry,' I said while grabbing a tissue immediately and start cleaning up the mess that i did. Sanchai who already come back with her foods help me clean up.

I sigh heavily after it's done and put my head on Lei's shoulder. Half of me think Lei knows what is going on and half of me think he doesn't know. Maybe he knows i'm dealing with something but he doesn't know the detail. My eyes look at Ximen who sits across me and he looks at me at the same time. But i don't bother to look somewhere else. We just keep looking at each other until Lei pat my head to break the stare.

'Do you want to go home?' He asks.
'I still have class at 3pm and then i have a discussion until 6pm at the library,'
'Okay then i'll wait for you. We go back together. Try to finish your food Xia,' I nod then i take my spoon and eat my porridge silently.

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XIMEN

I'm pretty sure Lei still doesn't figure out what is going on with Xia. She really doesn't look good. I try to hide my shocking face when i saw her infront of the club with Yoon Jaeyoung. Why among all guys it has to be Yoon Jaeyoung? For sure Lei is not happy at all if he knows about it. But i don't have the right to tell him right? I mean he can ask Xia and if Xia wants him to know she will tell him. And it's pretty obvious she doesn't want him to know when she asked me to stay quite.