𝙘𝙧𝙪𝙨𝙝. 𝘯𝘢 𝘫𝘢𝘦𝘮𝘪𝘯 [✅]

十九

{KAKAOTALK}

gunhuang
baemin

2:14am

gunhuang
can i ask why tho

4:08am

baemin
ugh i knew you would ask this

gunhuang
why are you still up?

baemin
just didn't feel like sleeping

gunhuang
you have school in like 3 hours, jaemin

baemin
i know

baemin
i'll take a nap in physics don't worry

gunhuang
you tell me not to worry as if i could do that

baemin
wdym

gunhuang
i always worry about you

gunhuang
I'd like you to get some more sleep

baemin
ejjycjjskdjv

gunhuang
back to the topic

gunhuang
why don't you want to go on a a date with me?

baemin
because i'm not ready

baemin
i'm emotionally drained, hyung

baemin
literally

baemin
i'm numb

baemin
my doc put me on meds again

baemin
i'm not ready to love someone yet

baemin
i can't afford to lose myself again when you'll leave

gunhuang
what makes you think i'd leave?

baemin
hyung, you would. i'm depressed and anxious, i'd just be burden to you like i was to jeno. i don't want to drag you into this because you deserve so much better than me

baemin
i appreciate you a lot, gun, but only as a friend for now.

baemin
i can't give my all to someone after everything that happened

baemin
i already lost so many parts of me

gunhuang
i don't want better jaemin, i want you

gunhuang
for you

gunhuang
with all your flaws

gunhuang
i just want to fix you and show you how real love works

baemin
but that's the thing hyung

baemin
you can't fix me

baemin
sometimes love just isn't enough.