The Other World

11

Hindi ko namalayan na nakarating na pala ako sa pintuan ng office ng mga SIRS. Kumatok ako, tsaka hinintay yung hudyat na Pwede na akong pumasok.

Nang marinig ko na ay tsaka pa lang ako pumasok.

"Good morning, po." bati ko sa ibang mga SIRS na nadaanan ko, bago ako makarating kay mom.

Nang makarating ako sa harapan ni mom, ay nagbeso ako sa kaniya.

"How are you, mom?" I ask her.

"I'm fine, my princess. How bout ya?"

I smiled at her. "I am still the sexy and hot as hell, your daughter."

She laughs. I really wanted to hear my mother's laugh. Nakakapangiti kasi, kapag ikaw na yung makakarinig. "Oh, you're very very fine huh?" I nod.

Bigla Kong naalala yung reason kung bakit ako nandidito sa harap ni mom, at nakakausap siya.

"Mom, before we forgot the reason why do you called me here." I said. "will you please tell me now?" She nod her head a little bit, that if you're not looking at her intently, you can't see her move.

"I want you first to sit, and be comfortable. Ayoko namang biglain ka, kahit na Alam Kong may naiisip ka ng dahilan kung bakit kita pinatawag dito. Na maaaring tama, pwede rin namang Hindi." I do all the things that she said to me.

"Mom, will you tell me now? Lalo akong kinakabahan, knowing na maaaring maging tama yung naiisip ko sa naiisip mo. Like what you said."

She sighs. "I don't want this to happen, but I don't have the rights to fight for it. May pinangako kasi ako sa harapan ng mages, that I will be fair to all the man kind. But I broke one of the promises I've promised. And that is I have to be fair, even if its your family." Her eyes is a little bit puff now, means that she will gonna cry later. And when I said later, that means now. Because I see her, wiping her Lone tears that escape her eyes. "I promised to be fair, the first rule of being an Official Superior. But I broke that. Who wouldn't? When you found out, that your daughter will send in another world without your permission? Without the only family permission." The one tears that escaped in her eyes before, has now become a waterfalls. A waterfalls that is full of pain, and hatred. Pain for what? Hatred for what? I don't know.

"I've just heard it, when they're talking in office. My secretary got confused that time when she sees me outside the building of the company. And ask me, if the meeting has finished? I got confused too. Because what meeting? No one told me about that meeting. So instead of asking my secretary, I go to the office just to heard that they're talking about you. About your special mission, and you living in the Earth for more than 3 months." She cried for almost 5 minutes, before continuing. "W-without my permission. Who would become happy, if they found out that? And you know, what hurts the most?" She asks me, still crying.

Instead of talking, I just nod. Parang may alam na kasi ako sa sasabihin niya. "They didn't even tell me that. Hanggang ngayon. But what's worst, is that I know you will accept it even if I plead you not."

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Its afternoon now, but I'm still in my bed thinking what my mother said.

Hindi ko kasi alam yung gagawin ko. Ni Hindi ko nga rin naisip na papayag ako, even if my mothers told me not. Hindi ko kasi makita yung sarili ko, as a person na Hindi susundin yung gusto ng parent ko.

Tumayo na ako, kailangan ko ng kumilos ngayon. Walang mangyayari sakin, kapag Hindi ako kumilos pa. And naalala ko, na kailangan ko palang pumunta sa office ngayon since sasabihin na daw sakin yung mission ko na alam ko naman na kung ano.

Nag-ayos lang ako ng saglit, tsaka umalis sa apartment ko. Hindi na rin ako nakapag-paalam kay Charm, since wala naman siya doon Simula pa kahapon ng pag-uwi ko.

Nakarating na ako sa office, pero instead of knocking nagdire-diretso na lang ako sa paglakad. Pag-tingin ko sa paligid, walang mga mages or even the SIRS. Kaya nagpa-tuloy ako sa paglalakad, hanggang sa makarating ako sa pintuan ng office ni mom. Itatanong ko lang sa kaniya kung san ba dapat ako pumunta, for meeting.

Kakatok na sana ako, ng marinig Kong may nag-uusap sa loob. Kaya sa halip na kumatok ay maghihintay na lang ako na matapos silang mag-usap.

"Why do you do that?!" I heard a voice of man shouting inside.

"Why not? That's my daughter, and I have the rights!" Shout of a voice of woman, who I can tell my mom.

I heard the man inside laugh. "Daughter?! Who?!"

"Shut up!"

"Why?! Tell me, why do I have to shut up?"

"I said shut up!" my mother's voice cracked.

"What? Don't you want to hear the truth, again? That's the one you're telling us, as a daughter is ----"

"Not my real daughter! That's what you want to hear? Huh? That's it! I said it, are you happy na?! Masayang-masaya ka na ba?!" you can hear the crying voice of my mother.

But instead na magulat ako, wala. My emotions got drain, that you will see my face has now blank. Bakit ka ba naman kasi magugulat pa? I didn't expect that, pero wala namang nakakagulat right? Kahit naman na Hindi mo ine-expect yon, there still a possibility that can be happen.

It's a life, not a fantasy. A real, not expectations.

I sighed then knock the door. After more than minutes, I heard the come in. So I go inside.

"Good morning." I said to them, but I still have the blank face.

Instead of good morning back, I heard my mother asks. "Kakarating mo lang ba?"

I nod. "Yes."

Tumayo na ang lalaki at humarap kay mom. "Lalabas na ako."

Tinanguan lang siya ni mom, sinundan ko ng tingin ang paglakad ng lalaki papalabas. Nang kaming dalawa nalang ang natira, humarap na ako sa kaniya. "I'm here para sabihin na papayag po ako sa mission. Katulad nga po ng sabi niyo, hindi niyo na ko mapipigilan."

Her face became blank. "Ok." Tumalikod ito sakin, nakaharap na siya sa glass of window.

"Sige po, aalis na ako. Mag-iingat ako." I slowly said that while walking towards the door. Hindi ko na siya narinig na magsalita pa hanggang sa makalabas na ako sa office ni mom.

I am not yet ready to know the truth behind my family. Wag muna ngayon, sariwa pa ang lahat. Pag-iisipan ko kung kelan ako magiging handa para harapin ang katotohanan sa buhay ko.

Ang alam ko lang ngayon, hindi pa ko ready. Baka anong masasamang mga bagay lang ang masabi ko sa kaniya. Ayokong makasakit, tuwing galit kasi ako ay nasasabi ko ang mga bagay bagay na pagsisisihan ko bandang huli at ayoko mangyari yon.

Naiinis ako kay mom, tinuring ko siyang magulang ko just to know na hindi niya naman pala ako totoo na anak? What more? Pati ba yung mga sinabi niya sakin about sa totoo kong tatay ay kasinungalingan din?

Di ko na alam kung ano ba ang paniniwalaan ko sa mga pinagsasabi niya sakin.