It's been 2 fucking weeks without her I've been going crazy people think I'm doing fine but I'm not. I still go to set people try not to talk about what happened. I cry every night and morning we're still trying to look for her her mom is here helping me with the girls.
I let the girls sleep with me every night I don't like sleeping alone and I don't want A to get them the girls keep asking for her but I'm running out of excuses to give them. I'm at set right know I have the girls with me and Pam is watching them.
In the scene
Ali: we don't want to join your club!
JoJo: Taner please think of all the gays stuck in the closet just waiting to come out!
Micheal: that's not my problem!
Sam: cut!
End of scene.
Sam: that was good guy we have one more scene tomorrow and we're done!!
I just nod and walk of to my dressing room I take the girls from Pam.
Ali: I'm going to go out to dinner with the girls you can go home thank you Mrs. Fields.
Pam: it's Pam and anytime sweetheart see you at home!
I go to my trailer I lock the door and change really quick.
Shea: mommy play?
Ali: hold on baby I have to make a call.
I grab my phone and press call it goes straight to voice mail.
Emily: hi you reached Emily Fields please leave a message after the beep if your not Ali they I'm not calling back!
Ali: hey so I just wanted to here your voice I miss you so much the girls ask about you. Off course they do um anyways call me back when you get a chance I love you.
I hang up and wipe my tears I hear someone knocking I open the door it's Paul the cast and I are really close.
Ali: um hey what up I'm about to leave?
I start packing stuff in the diaper bag.
Paul: um what you doing tonight?
Ali: I'm taking the girls out to eat why?
Paul: cause we're all coming with you we miss you.
Ali: sure whatever I'm going to the Italian place around the corner.
Paul: we'll meet you there!
He leaves I sit on the coach and sigh god my life is so shit right know the only thing that's keeping me from losing hope is the kids. I watch the girls play I sit on the flor and play with them for a little.
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