They Don't Know About Us

Chapter 14

Liam's POV

Today in science class we were assigned partners and the teacher just so happen to make Niall my partner. I guess you could say I was happy. I mean this would be the first time I have talked to Niall in about a month. He walked over to me and he had a slight smile that showed he felt weird talking to me. "Hey Liam." "Niall..." "So, how have you been?" "I have been fine. What about you? I heard you got like 3 scholarships for soccer." "Yea, I did. I don't know which one I want to choose yet. They are all so far away." "Where are they?" I asked really worrying about our future if we have one together. I mean I know we broke up, but I can't be without Niall. "They are all in America." "Oh," I said calmly even though I wanted to die inside. We just kind of stared at each other. I broke the silence, "well that is great, I bet your dad is so proud." "Yeah, he is. I just wish my mom was here to be proud of me." "Aww Niall, she still is. She is in your heart." After I said that I realized that I had just gotten over Jordan's death. No matter how much I wished she was here and even though she wasn't here physically, she was here in my heart.

We were slient again and I had no idea how to break it this time. Was this what it was like to not know what to the person you had so much feeling for? "Niall?" "Yes Liam?" "I still love you, I miss you so much and I have no idea how to express that right now," I said looking at him hoping his answer wasn't worse than I thought it would be. He pulled me at the arm the arm and motioned at Mr. Afred that we were going to "the bathroom."  When we were outside he let go of my arm and gave a glare. "Liam what are you thinking? Why would you do that? Do you realize that I can't answer something like that in all of those people?" I just looked at him with so much sorrow in my eyes. "Niall...what is wrong with you? This was our problem before. I thought this whole us being gay in public was resolved and now it starting again. What are you afraid of? Nothing can hurt you or us anymore. Niall you already have your future set for you, why can't we try to make this work again. Don't you still love me?" Tears were coming out of my eyes now. "Liam I don't know how to answer that." "What fuck do you mean you don't know how to answer that? Either you love me or you don't," I said raising my voice. "Liam please stop..." Niall begged. "Fine Niall, I'm done. If you want to be a fucking jackass then be that way,"  I walked away and I didn't care that I didn't even have my stuff, I was way past done. I got the keys to my car out of my locker and walked to my car. 

I had no more friends. Jordan was gone, Niall didn't even want me. While I was driving my long sleeve fell a little revealing my scars from the previous weeks. I was sad and this was my only go to. 

I was finally home, but I knew my parents weren't. I walked into a dark empty house that no one was ever at. 

I walked into the bathroom and looked in the mirror. I didn't look like I did a few weeks. I looked tired and I was skinnier. I needed something or someone to help me feel better. I opened the medicine cabinet and the first thing I saw was a bottle of sleeping pills. I cracked open the bottle and poured 5 into the palm of hand. I looked at the mirror one last time and then swallowed the pills. At that very moment my life was flashing through my mind. The very last vision I saw before I blacked out was Niall and I living a happy life together, then it went black......