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-T R I G G E R W A R N I N G:

SUICIDE, SELF HARM, DEPRESSION;

PLEASE READ CAREFULLY-

calumhizzle: ASHTON
calumhizzle: ASHTON
calumhizzle: ASHTON
calumhizzle: IRWIN
calumhizzle: ASHTON IRWIN
calumhizzle: DONT MAKE ME USE YOUR MIDDLE NAME
calumhizzle: ASSSSHTTTTOOOOONNNNN

astroash: sigh
astroash: you're so needy

calumhizzle: I HAVE NEWS, ASSHOLE

astroash: ah
astroash: what is it

calumhizzle: .....
calumhizzle: you're not enthusiastic enough yet

astroash: oh my god
astroash: MY BEAUTIFUL BOYFRIEND, MY LOVE, MY WONDERFUL AMAZING GORGEOUS LOVER
astroash: WHAT NEWS DO YOU HAVE TO BEHOLD UPON ME

calumhizzle: i hate you

astroash: 🤷‍♂️

calumhizzle: so i may or may not be releasing an app

astroash: WHAT
astroash: OMG

calumhizzle: it's still in development obviously
calumhizzle: but i got approved to take it to apple for approval in the app store and shit

astroash: omgomg
astroash: what is it??

calumhizzle: okay so it's kind of just a self care app ig??
calumhizzle: but it's so much more than that
calumhizzle: you log the time you take your meds every day, it notifies you if you haven't logged that you took them within 3 hours of when you normally do
calumhizzle: and it'll have a separate tab for self care like taking care of your body and de-stressing and stuff like that, and it has exercises and tips and stuff for if you're feeling extra anxious or something like that
calumhizzle: and another tab will be abt self harm
calumhizzle: info on all of it, stuff like that
calumhizzle: and it'll send you messages every day like "you can do it" but not as cliché
calumhizzle: like actual stuff that has helped people get through it before
calumhizzle: stuff that helped me
calumhizzle: and if you relapse you can log it, and it counts every day since, so when you reach a week, a month, 6 months, a year, etc. it's like a """checkpoint""" but it's just saying that you've come this far, keep going
calumhizzle: and another tab will be all the hotlines in the places the app will be available

astroash: holy shit
astroash: that's so amazing love

calumhizzle: thank you
calumhizzle: i've been designing it since i was 16
calumhizzle: i was in the hospital after i tried to OD the second time and it was like 4am and i couldn't sleep so i got my laptop and i started writing down my ideas
calumhizzle: and here we are

astroash: hold on
astroash: how many times did you try to kill yourself?

calumhizzle: 3
calumhizzle: the 3rd was cutting myself but i decided i fucked hated that more than i wanted to die
calumhizzle: so i tried to OD
calumhizzle: and by the way?
calumhizzle: 13 reasons why can suck my dickkkkkkkkkk because of the suicide scene
calumhizzle: that's absolutely, 100%, definitely NOT how it goes down
calumhizzle: you don't cry and do it then die peacefully
calumhizzle: the reason i didn't die from it was because it was so terrible that i started screaming for my mum and she called an ambulance just in time
calumhizzle: ~we don't stan 13rw~ ~or selena gomez~ ~and everybody who ignored the warnings to not show that~