All of Me

55.

Khadijah

I swung my legs over the bed as I stood up to stretch. Looking at the clock I sighed as I read that it was going on ten o'clock in the morning, and I had an appointment at eleven.

It's been a week since my blowouts with Monique and Trey, but it's felt like a month.

I pulled my phone out to text Trey the address and time for the appointment before putting it on the charger.

I went to the bathroom and started my morning routine, and thirty minutes later I was dressed and ready to go. I checked my phone as I locked up the house, seeing if I got a response from Trey, but there was none.

I sighed and got in my car, pulling off towards the doctor's office, which was only a fifteen minute drive from my house.

Once I got there, I signed in and sat in the waiting room, waiting for my name to be called to head to the back to see Dr. Chan.

Every time someone entered the office, I looked up in hopes that it would be Trey, but it never was. I got up and stepped to the side in a secluded area and tried to call him. When I dialed his number it went straight to voicemail, no ring, no nothing.

So I decided to call Korie and see if he was there since I'd heard he's been at his house since he left last week.

"Hello?"

"Yeah, Korie, is Trey around?"

"Nope, he ain't been here in two days. Why what's up?" I heard him shifting around on the phone.

"Well I'm at the doctor's for a check up on the baby, he told me he'd be around for appointments but I guess that was a lie."

"Well where is it, I'll come up there with you."

"Nah, don't worry about it I'm good. Ever since me and Mo stopped talking I haven't heard from you, you haven't called or came to visit."

"Look I'm not trynna be in the middle of what any of y'all got goin' on."

"You're my brother, so since when did checking on me, calling, or visiting put you in the middle of anything?"

The line grew quiet and I could tell he didn't know what to say next, or how to answer the question.

"Khadijah Watts?" A nurse peeked out the door leading to the back.

"I gotta go." I hung up the phone and made my way over to the nurse with a warm smile.

"Hello Ms. Watts, how are you today?"

"I'm fine, just ready to meet my baby already."

"Oh I know the feeling, I have three girls and each pregnancy was the same. I was anxious and nervous all at once. But just enjoy it because it's a whole new world when they're born." She opened the door for me and told me to have a seat. "Dr. Chan will be right with you sweetie."

"Thank you." She nodded and closed the door.

I looked around the room, reading over the posters on the wall obtaining information about pregnancy. I rubbed my belly thinking about being a mom, and something about motherhood had me feeling all types of emotions. I prayed that I'd be a great mother and I prayed that I could provide and be there for my child through everything. No matter what happens I want my child to always confide in me and know that I'm here.