Only You (Sequel to Good Enough)

3

Jade

We were walking to beach hand in hand and just stealing slight glances at each other. This is how newly weds are supposed to act toward each other. I truly love Perrie Edwards.

I looked at her and wondered how I got so lucky. She was stunning with her long blonde hair and ocean blue eyes. Her skin is pale, but it makes her look so beautiful to me. We make it on the beach and I smile looking at the gorgeous ocean in front of us.

"Wow. Hawaii is breathtaking." I say while looking around at the nature around us. Perrie giggles slightly and says "It is, but my wife is even more breathtaking."

I blush slightly at her comment and she leans in to kiss me. I peck her lips and sit down in the sand. She looks at me and says "I'm going to run back and get some towels as we've forgotten them." She laughs. I chuckle and realize that we didn't really take anything to the beach.

I began to drag my fingers through the sand and smiled loving everything about Hawaii. I began to think about what married life with Perrie would be like.

I always wanted children, but I loved spending time with Perrie. I didn't want a child to be stealing all of Perrie's attention from me. It was selfish, but I loved Perrie's attention. She always listened to my stories so intently and was always showering me in compliments. I knew that Perrie was going to be the best mother and she always wanted children because of her huge heart.

I just didn't realize how important children were to her. I should've seen it coming as she always treats Little Karl and Amara with such care and looks at them so happily whenever we see my niece and nephew.

I sighed and thought about how taking care of pregnant Perrie would be so adorable in the future. She would be the biggest pain when she is pregnant, but I wouldn't care as she's the only woman who I would imagine taking that journey with.

I got scared when I felt somebody's arms around me. I turned around and saw my gorgeous blonde's smile.

Her smile could light up an entire room as it was so captivating. "I'm back." She hums while handing me a towel. I smile and she lays down next to me.

"Hey. I'm sorry for earlier." I say to her knowing that it was wrong of me to walk out on our meal together earlier. "I'm sorry for flirting with the bartender." Perrie apologizes to me. Her hand finds mine and she intertwines our fingers together.

"Jade. I don't care if you don't want children ever.." she begins while looking at the sand. I can tell that she truly wants children as her voice cracks when she says that. I look at her and say "I want children Perrie. I just don't want them to take away our time together. I just imagined I would have some time with my wife before someone else gets her attention."

She looks at me and her mouth is wide open. "Jadey. You'll always be my number one." She says to me. I shake my head and look at her. "Perrie once that baby pops out of you, it'll be the most important thing in your life. You're going to love it more than you've loved anything. Trust me on that." I sigh knowing that mothers love their children more than anything which is normal. I just am selfish and love my Perrie more than anything and don't want to share her.

I'm just so insecure with myself and I honestly think I'll be a terrible mother compared to her. Having children gives me terrible anxiety and I have no idea how to convey it to Perrie. "Jade. What's gotten into you!?" She asks me. I groan and turn away from Perrie as I don't even know what's going on with me. I just feel so insecure recently.

"P-Perrie. I don't know...I just I feel horrible about myself..." I say before the tears began to form in my eyes. I can feel her body as she pulls me into her lap and has her arms wrapped around me.