Only You (Sequel to Good Enough)

10

Jade

Once Perrie is asleep on my chest I softly kiss her head and play with her blonde locks. It helps to calm my anxiety and recently I have missed being able to do this.

I have no idea how I got so incredibly lucky to be blessed with the best wife in the world. I cannot believe that she's still here with me and the fact that she's trying to work with me on this.

Perrie's heart is so incredibly big and kind. I know that it's been hurt so many times before. Hell I've hurt her heart before, but it doesn't make her love any less. Perrie is the best person that I know. I cannot believe how incredibly lucky I got with Perrie.

I could describe how perfect she is, but that would take much too long. I wish I could tell her this more, but whenever I look at her I'm at a loss for words. She is so incredibly gorgeous and she doesn't even know it. She could be the cutest person in the world while she's sleeping. She just always looks to be so peaceful whenever she's asleep. It's like nobody can hurt her when she's in her sleep.

I know that I should be sleeping as well, but I am completely wide awake. I have to make sure that I treat her like a princess the rest of the honeymoon. I need to make sure that she's completely happy and in love during the rest of our time here.

I know that I fucked up, and she knows that I fucked up. But now it's my time to show her that I truly love her more than anything.

I hear her start to stir in her dream and I quickly focus my attention on the blonde. She's mumbling a little bit which probably means that she is dreaming. "J-Jade stop." She mumbles in her sleep. I get concerned as it doesn't sound like a playful tone.

I wonder what she could possibly be dreaming about. "I'm sorry." She mumbles while gripping me tighter. I bite my lip unsure of what to do yet. I'm not sure if she's having a nightmare or it's just part of her dream.

Suddenly she wakes up and starts frantically looking for something. "Perrie. Babe what are you doing?" I ask her trying to see what she's looking for. She turns to me and sighs.

"Oh Jade. I had a dream that I lost you." She says before tackling me in a hug. I can tell she's still in that phase between when you're sleeping and when you're fully awake.

"I'm right here baby." I say to her while pushing her hair to one side of her neck. I kiss her neck softly to let her know I'm here for her.

"Do you want to talk about your dream more?" I ask the blonde. She sighs and looks at me. "Well we were back home and you realized that you actually had feelings for Leigh-Anne." She mumbles sadly. I shake my head as a 'no' to assure her that I only have eyes for one woman.

"That's never going to happen Perrie. I have the most beautiful, kind, caring wife in the world. Nobody compares to you babe." I tell her before placing a kiss on her cheek.

"But I'm not hot like she is Jade! You don't see me like that" Perrie whines out. "You're so much more than that! I adore you with my entire heart Perrie." I tell her trying to make her see herself like I see her.

"Well if I was so adored by you then you wouldn't have slept with someone else. Why can't you fucking show me how much you love me?" She asks as if she's trying to get me to read her mind.

"What more do you want from me Perrie?" I ask her. "Do you want me to tell you that you're the hottest woman I've ever seen? Do you want me to tell you about all the dirty things I want to do to you? I want us to go back to normal Perrie." I confess to her.

"I don't think we can just go back to normal. How would you feel if I slept with Jesy? Knowing our bodies were tangled in each other's? Knowing that I kissed her and she kissed me back. Knowing that she made me." I cut Perrie off by covering my ears and trying not to think of the image stuck in my head.

"See you can't even stand it." She says with a smirk knowing she's right. I sigh and I look at her. "Even if you did that. I would still love you." I tell her.

"I would be hurt. I would cry everyday, but Perrie I would still love you. I'd still love the way you smile whenever you're right about something. I'd still love the way you blush whenever you're complimented even if I wasn't the one giving them to you. I'd still love you. No matter what." I tell her as the tears rolled down my cheeks.

"But Perrie. I can't keep having this argument. I hope you know how sorry I truly am. I hope you know it was the worst mistake of my life. I hope you know that I love you with all of my heart. If you aren't ready to move forward I understand. If you want a divorce and to never see me I understand." I tell her. Those words hurt me to say, but I know that it needed to be said. We've had the same argument for almost two weeks now.

I don't know where Perrie stands on the topic. I'm not sure what she wants to do.

"Jade. I vowed to you that I would love you no matter what. I do. I love you." She tells me. I smile and try to hug her, but she stops me.

"But I don't think that I can do this anymore. I just can't get those images out of my head no matter how hard I try. I love you Jade, but I have to let you go." She tells me while starting to cry more.

"Jade. We need to get a divorce." she tells me. I swear I could feel every bone in my body break when she tells me that.

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Uh oh! I don't think you guys were expecting that!

I swear this story will have a good ending !! (There is a reason why it's called Only You)

I know it's always tough to read when Jerrie is apart but don't worry there aren't going to be that many chapters left! I promise to update quickly so that my very loyal readers (which I can't believe people still read this even after so long) can find out what happens with Jerrie!

Hope you guys are healthy and safe during this time!

Don't hate me!

- Leah