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Desolation

Deanna's POV

Andito na kami sa parking area ng bar. I'm feeling uneasy. Is it time na ba para magpakita sa kanila? What if galit pa sila? What if ayaw nila akong makita?

Hey baby deanns, chill ka nga. Mukha kang natatae eh. Napansin ata ni ate den na di ako mapakali.

Ate den naman, nakuha mo pang magbiro. Alam mo naman na sobrang kaba ko diba? She's trying to lighten the mood.

I know, but you'll be fine. Don't you trust them? We're like family and we love you deanns. So, chill. She's right. We're family, but not until I betrayed them all. I left without a word.

Alright alright. Pag ako nasapak, ikaw na bahala sa akin ha.

Ano ka ba. Di yan mangyayari. Tara na nga. I got your back. Ate den, try to assure me that magiging okay din ang lahat.

Pagpasok namin ng bar, expected daming tao. Maganda kasi ang bar tsaka maganda ang music nila. Tingin tingin para makita sila ng may biglang lumapit sa amin, at first di ko makilala maybe dahil sa lights. Pero ng nasa malapitan na ay nakilala ko na.

Ate den, nasa VIP area sila. It was Faith Nisperos. Oh! Ate deanns, you're back na pala. Papi parin ah. Namiss po kita. Sabay yakap sa akin. Di man kami nagkasama ng matagal ay napalapit na din sa'kin si Faith.

Yep. I'm back. Namiss din kita. I hug her back. Then nagpa-alam na din siya kasi may aasikasohin pa dw siya. She owns this bar pala.

Ready? Tara dun tayo. Ate den guided me sa VIP area. Malayo palang ay tanaw ko na sila, at mukhang nagkakatuwaan. Ang saya lang, sana di ko masira ang gabi nila. Nakakamiss naman.

When we enter the room they we're all shocked seeing me nabalot ng katahimikan. Ate bea broke the silence. Dami nilang tanong lalo na si ate bea, pongs work at MMC din pala.

Ang daming nagbago pero si ate ella matakaw parin, dami kong namiss na pangyayari sa mga buhay nila. Ate Bei with ate jho, ate madz with jules, vanie with jaycel, ate den and ate ly got married and also pongs with kobe.

Pero may isa akong hinanap, I was expecting na andito siya. Gusto ko lang siya makita, kamusta na kaya siya, napatawad na kaya niya ako, naka move-on na siya diba. She was with Ced the other day, how did they happen? I thought Ced was with Tots. So many questions pero sasagutin ko muna mga katanungan ni ate bea.

Deanns, how are you? Why haven't you told me, us na you're back. What happened to you? Are okay?

I sigh before answering her questions. And I can see that they are all waiting for my response.

I'm fine, doing good actually. I'm a cardiothoracic surgeon now. I haven't told you guys na I'm back na because I was afraid, afraid na galit pa kayo sa akin, afraid na di niyo na ako tatanggapin pa. If it wasn't for ate den di ako magpapakita sa inyo today. Accidentally akong nakita ni ate den sa MMC on my 3rd day, we talked and I asked her not to tell anyone even you ate ly. Sorry for that. Di pa kasi ako handa. Until last week, ate den finally convinced me na magpakita na. I started explaining. Kinakabahan ako. If they could hear my heartbeat it's beating so fast and it's pounding so hard parang gusto kumawala. Aside sa kaba, nahihiya din ako ang laking abala ang ginawa ko. Ang daming nadamay.

I'm really sorry guys for the things that I have done. For the trouble I have caused you. For the pain that I have given you all. For betraying you all. For the trust that I have broken. I left you all hanging. I left without a word. I'm so sorry. It wasn't my intention it was my parent's choice, they gave me an ultimatum, wala akong nagawa.
I was so weak back then. Sana mapatawad niyo ako. As much as I wanna hold back my tears pero I can't help it. I cried infront of them. And to answer ate bea's last question, I'm not okay, kasi alam ko may isang tao pa na kailangan kong makausap upang humingi ng tawad.