The Doctor is IN💙

Yea, Babe, No Way

Everything was better when
You would call and I'd be like "yea, babe"
We should talk about love again
Every night I'm wide awake
I almost call you, then I'm like no way
Oh, no way

Deanna's POV

Fel is at my doorsteps waiting for me, crying. It makes me confused parang kanina lang ang bully niya at ang saya saya niya tapos ngayon, a different Fel I'm seeing. I open my condo unit and guided her inside.

Nasa couch na kami ngayon, wala paring tigil sa pag iyak si Fel, nakaka-awa siyang tingnan. Ayoko siyang nakikitang umiiyak. I just kept on rubbing her back. Di rin ako nagsasalita.

Dito lang ako sa tabi niya, tahimik at inaantay kung kelan niya balak magsalita. Medjo kalmado na rin siya. Mga mumunting hikbi na lang ang naririnig ko galing sa kanya.

Tatayo na sana ako para ikuha siya ng tubig pero hinila niya ako pabalik sa upuan.

Dito ka lang. wag mo kong iiwan please. Weird but I obeyed. I don't know why but I got this feeling that something is wrong.

Fel, what seems to be the problem? Okay ka naman kanina bago tayo maghiwalay then all of a sudden you're here crying like there's no tomorrow. I asked her. Kasi naman, okay talaga siya kanina, ang bully pa nga niya.

There might be no tomorrow Deanns. Parang nabingi ata ako dun sa sagot niya.

there might be no tomorrow deanns . . .

there might be no tomorrow deanns . . .

there might be no tomorrow deanns . . .

there might be no tomorrow deanns . . .

I was stuck. Frozen unable to digest what I just heared. Might be no tomorrow? What does she mean by that? But before I could open my mouth siya na sumagot sa katanungan ko.

I'm sick deanns. I don't know if there's still hope. I'm dying deanns and I'm scared. I'm freaking scared. She told me. She's sick? But it seems like she's not.

Cardiac Tumor. Swerte ko diba? She continued.

How? I mean paano mo na laman? I asked. Cardiac tumors, rare masyado. It affects a very tiny percent in the population. But there is hope.

One day, during residency, I collapsed. And that's when they found out. She calmly told me. I was closely examining her.

She did lose weight, it's evident. She's pale, her whole being clearly shows she's not okay. How could I miss it, damn it!

How bad is it? I asked. I calmly asked but my head is working. I need to treat her. Maybe that's the reason she's here, the reason she's back. She needs me.

I don't know. I really don't wanna know. After learning of my illness, I become distant to the people close to me. She sobs. She looks so desperate, depress. She's emotional. She's drained. She badly needs help.

But you did know that, it could be benign, right? Why didn't you ask for treatment? I asked in calm tone with a touch of hope. Cancer can be malignant or benign, if it's a benign one then there's a big possiblity of recovering but if it's malignant, yea it's dangerous but with advanced technology there might be aw ay out.