Redemption (incomplete)

A Random Poem I wrote

A/n.
So... this is a poem I recently wrote, it's a bit dark but I'm kinda proud of it. Tell me what you think but please don't be too harsh.

Alone.

Blank face,
Blank eyes,
Fake smile,
Real emotions.
You say it's okay but I can't  breathe,
You say it's okay but I'm still alone.

Then there's him.
The boy who you knew so well,
Who's light never grew dim.
Your "best friend" born straight from hell.
Memories are all I see:
Smiles,
Hugs,
Bushes of privacy that turn into files,
Full of more memories but hidden under rugs
Or locked away to save everyone else but me.

Another form pushes its way in,
A blow to the head, a hand to the neck.
All I do is let him win,
But my safe haven becomes a wreck.
The boy who's been around all my life,
The sweet, caring child
Now brings strife
And leaves me in the wild,
Alone.

Thirteen,
A special age.
The age when you aren't seen,
A new page
In a new book,
A book full of a previous mistake.
A book in which everyone gets to take a look
At the tear filled lake.

Then comes a new word,
Anxiety.
The bringer of cries they've never heard
And by them, I mean society.
The ones that judge as they watch
Us; crying, searching
For something, to hide in a quiet notch
Or on a windowsill, perching.

Life, 
The thing that makes, the sin that breaks.
With all our strife,
How do we continue to drown in lakes
When we can't stop
The ever-coming din, the scornful cries
That hurl us from the top
Into a pit of lies
And tries.

Until it's quiet.
That noise grows dim,
Like a bulb that blows
From a constant surge of power.
Like a dam, with so much water
Hurled against it;
And it breaks.
I break.
And it's dark.

A/n.

So... what do you think? I know it's really dark but I'm proud of it. Please don't be really harsh, but I'm always open to constructive criticism. Thanks for reading and have a nice day!