Fem!Reader x Rantaro Amami

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A/N: sksk I'm gonna just skip past the huge exposition thing and skip to reactions since there's so much dialogue :'D oh yeah and you're still on Amami's shoulders becauseeee idk your legs just said no to life?

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Y/N's POV

I couldn't believe what I'd heard.. I didn't understand... I couldn't understand... why would someone do this?! We did nothing wrong! At least.. I did nothing wrong! Did someone else do something to piss off monochromatic furry?! This can't be happening! I can't be in a killing game! I could barely stand a chance against the world without this killing game! How the hell was I supposed to survive in a game where my every decision is life or death?! I can't do this.. I can't do this.. I can't.. I can't..
"I can't.. no no.. I.. oh my god.. oh my god.. i can't.. no no no no no..." I mutter meaningless gibberish to myself.
What if they can hear me?! I can't let them hear me freaking out, or talking to myself.. what if they think I'm insane?! I'm not insane! Right?!.. I need to calm down. Damnit.. try to remember what her therapist said.. to calm nerves.. god, what was it?!
At this point, my legs are shaking violently, my vision's starting to go blurry, and of course, I'm still muttering gibberish under my breath. I realize I'm still on Rantaro's shoulders.. he can probably hear my mumbling.
Oh my god.. he probably thinks I'm insane! What if someone tries to kill me because they think I'm gonna go crazy?! That can't happen.. right. That can't happen. Focus. What did she say?
Thoughts are rampaging my mind, but I try to calm myself down so I can focus on the trick I was told.
"..that's it." I remember. I know what it is.. I just have to focus now. In any other case, someone would've asked me "what's it", but I'm sure the current situation is pretty distracting.
Okay.. the trick to calming yourself when you're stressed. Step one, find five things you can see.
I look around the gym. Let's see.. Ryoma's hat, the stage, the trees, the projector, and Rantaro.
Easy-peasy. Next up is four things I can feel.
Well, right off the bat, Rantaro was still holding me on his shoulders, keeping me stable by holding my legs. But, there's more pressure than before.. I guess I can't blame him, though. I would hug him to reassure him it'll be okay, but I can't exactly do that when I'm up here, plus, I need to calm myself down first. Oh right, 3 more things. Okay.. well, I can feel my shoes on my feet, and my bracelets.. I need one more thing... oh, of course! Rantaro's hair!
Alright, I'm almost half done. Three things I can hear is next on the list.
Well, I can't really hear much... wait... oh hey! This place has ventilation.. for some reason. Oh, Monokuma's stupid explanation of whatever the hell he was talking about, and I guess everyone's reactions are included in that. Uh.. that's pretty much it. No clock ticking or anything. Weird how there's vents but no clocks. I still need one more sound, though. Well, I can hear my own breath. That works, I guess.
Okay, half done! Just two more and I should feel at ease. Second last one is two things I can smell. Not sure how this one'll turn out.
Well, there's a distinct smell here. It smells roadkill in Arizona. On a hot summer day. While in a car with no air conditioning. Basically, utterly awful. There's not much else I can smell... I can't just start leaning forward to look for something, since I've been so still, Rantaro would probably get worried I fainted or— there we go! Rantaro! Everyone smells like something, right? But, for it to count I need to be able to actually smell it... so I can either continue to sniff for a corndog or something in this poor excuse of a gym without moving an inch, I can move a bit to look for something, or smell.. Rantaro.
Jesus. Well, I can barely handle this air anymore, and if I move, attention will be drawn to me. Guess that means I gotta.. god. Actually, I don't have to! Nothing's forcing me to! Except.. the trick might not work. Damnit. I guess I've got no other choice then.
I lean down slowly, trying to smell his fluffy hair. It smells like.. avocados. Strange. It tickles my nose a bit, but I manage to stifle my snicker. After all, it's not exactly appropriate to start giggling like a little bitch in situations like these.
That makes two things I've smelt.. reluctantly. One more thing. Just gotta find one thing I could taste— wait.. taste?! There's nothing I can eat here! I mean.. there's.. that.. but... no. Nope. Nopenopenopenope. Gotta think of something else.
I look around for something I could tas- uh.. let's just say, something that's edible. I look around... there's literally nothing. Damnit. All of a sudden, I hear gagging noises coming from the pink bear, Monophanie. She.. threw up?! Aren't they robots?! How does that even work? Then it dawns on me.
Monophanie's puke is the thing I can taste. Fantastic. Well, at least I'm not muttering.. or shaking anymore. Wait, shit! I haven't been paying attention! Now I know nothing, literally, nothing! I just know I might die, and that's it! Damnit! I've been so focused on focusing that I didn't focus at all!
"There's no better setting for an event like this than the Ultimate Academy!" I heard Monokuma's screechy voice exclaim. I couldn't believe that was the first thing I actually heard him say since he first announced his motive for bringing us here.
"Killing school semester.. it's like a game." I couldn't believe it, but that damned phrase just came out of Rantaro Amami's mouth. I feel shivers go down my spine as my legs tense up.
"What do you mean 'game'?! Are you out of your mind?!" I question him, not comprehending what's going through his head right now.
"Kehehe.. risking our lives for some silly game is absurd." Korekiyo was right, but his laugh gave his sentence a creepy undertone.
"It definitely doesn't seem like it'll be boring, though." Kokichi said.
"How can you degenerates be so calm?!" Tenko shut them up with her normal degenerate insult.
I would have backed up Tenko, but I was busy shivering on Rantaro's shoulders. Who just so happens to be the same guy who just called this a game. More people freaked out, others were freakishly calm, with Monokuma chiming in every now and then. As soon as they left, I heard a ring come from my Monopad.. but I ignored it. I didn't care how much knowledge I was missing.. it didn't matter.
"Amami."
"Y/N."
"Let me down."
"I thought you couldn't wa—"
"I said, let me down."
"Sorry.. of course."
He let me down cautiously, though I was tense, as soon as I was off his back, I stood up straight. I punched him in the chest, not being able to reach his face.
"Y/N?! What was that for?" He said more surprised than anything.
A few people looked up, and just tried to stay out of it, others let out a small gasp, and some people tried to just ignore it. I noticed Maki was just glaring at us.
"I dunno, maybe the fact you called everyone's lives here a fucking game?!" I normally didn't swear, but I couldn't help myself.
"What? Calm down!"
"Calm down?! How the hell is anyone supposed to be calm in this situation?"
We argued back and forth for a few more seconds, before Kaede stepped in.
"Guys! Please, stop fighting! It's not going to help anyone!"
"Oh shut up, princess! Are you aware he just called your life a game? A damn game?! Are you out of your mind too, Kaede?!" I sneered at her.
"Y/N, you're going too far! Don't—" Amami began to speak, but I cut him off.
"Don't call me Y/N! Honestly, don't call me anything! I'm not gonna be anywhere near a psychopath like you, let alone talking to one!"
Kiibo began to try and calm me down, but I slapped his metallic hand away. "Get away from me!"
"Don't snap at him, this between us. You don't need to yell and insult people!"
"Oh, like you're any better, green playboy!" In a fit of frustration, I stormed out of the gym. Of course, Kaede followed after me.
"Y/N! Please stop walking away! We're never gonna be able to defeat Monokuma if we can't work together!" She tried to stop me from walking to god knows where, but I refused to stop.
"Princess, not everything is so simple." I snapped, "It doesn't matter if you have a million people who can work together! We can't defeat Monokuma because of the Exisals, and we sure as hell cant climb that damn wall."
Kaede, hurt, stopped following me, finally taking a hint.