~Brallon~ What About Me?!

A/N I can't do this anymore.

Trigger warning- suicidal and self harm

I can't fucking do this anymore. The same person is back in my life ruining it. They took away one of my best friends.

They made my friends say terrible things about me.

I can't do this.

They make me want to die, the feeling of hatred towards myself is back again, they make me so mad. Idek if they're reading but if they are.

Whatever.

I feel like I'm going to throw up.

I rarely eat because of them.

I can't do it.

I'm not hungry.

I always feel sick because of my anxiety.

They make me anxious.

They make me suicidal.

I can't do this.

They come up with more lies, spread rumours about me. No one ever gives me a chance to say my part.

I can't do this.

I want to die.

I can't do this.

I want to hurt myself so bad. Only this god damn person is able to make me feel this way.

I leave them on read and they say I'm immature. Then they leave me on read.

I can't do this.

They'll say they miss me later when they're the reason I'm gone.

I can't do this.

They thought I said trash about them.

Why the fuck would I do that.

They've known me for a while and they should know I wouldn't ever do that.

I'm sick to the stomach.

I can't do this.

They refuse to look t me.

I can't do this.

I want to hurt myself:

I want to die.

I want the feeling gone.

But it won't be gone.

One person can affect someone so much.

I can't do this. I can't do it anymore.

They don't realize that I have feelings too.

I can't do this.

I was getting better.

This person is the reason I went back to my therapist. The reason I do braincore.

The reason I stay inside.

The reason I don't eat.

The reason I don't sleep.

The reason I feel this way.

But hey...

I'm gonna get homeschooled so I'll never have to see them ever again. I won't have to deal with them ever again. I don't have to cry over them. Ever. Again.

This isn't a suicide note at all.

But I'm tired.

I'm tired of this.

I just can't anymore...