Royality

Princess Nandini pandit

Nandini's POV

Nandini ....swords are not for girls , they are for men ,Ma said snatching my toy sword from my hand

But Ma...I want to learn swordfighting ..I said whining at her

No....it's for big brave men like your baba and bhai sa , it's not for sweet little girl like you..she said pinching my nose

Then what is there for me... I said with a annoyed face .

You want to know ? , she asked smiling and kneeling down in front of me

I nodded and she giggled again before taking something from the knot in her saree and giving it to me

Keys? I asked clearly bewildered

Hmm...keys , it means that this whole palace is for you , you have to make sure that this palace is always filled with happiness and joys ..you are the incharge of this whole big palace.....she said stretching her hands in a big dramatic way , showing me that she had given me such a big region of authority

I giggled happily at her

Really ma , am I incharge of this palace ?

Well you are too little for that now ,but I promise when you will grow up , I will give authority of my work while baba will give the authority of his work to Bhai sa ..got it ? She explained sweetly

Okay ma...I said jumping up and down in excitement .

The memory that was around 6-7 years old still managed to bring a wide smile on my face . At that time my childish innocent mind was not able to comprehend what she exactly wanted to say but now when I'm 18 years old , I realised that she told me the bitter reality of the society wrapped in her sugar coated words . By giving that keys to me that day she wanted to say that I'm a girl so my authority is limited only up to this the palace and that too upto the palace's kitchen . Being a girl in India and specially in Rajastan meant that you are only expected to look after the household works , making sure your husband and children are happy and that's it ..your happiness mattered the least , even if you are a princess you have the same fate ..my mother spent her whole lifetime looking after our wishes and demands , her whole life was spent inside that ghoonghat and I guess my life will be no different from hers

I'm Nandini pandit , Princess Nandini pandit ..daughter of Raja Rawal pandit , the king of jodhpur and being born in a highly prestigious royal family , From the time I opened my eyes I had every luxuries and comforts that people would die for , but still I felt that something was missing . From childhood days onwards I was more interested in learning sword fights , taking good decisions for our people and to be like my dad brave and courageous but unfortunately I was born as a girl , so I was expected to cook nicely , dress nicely , walk nicely so that someday some royal king may get attracted towards me and will marry me . From childhood days I have been told to suppress my aspirations and dreams , so I guess it had left me with so many inferiority complexes , my tanned color , my personality and everything that I was so so proud of as a child now makes me insecure , I was so outspoken and confident as a child but now I'm so shy to even talk to my parents about something...from my childhood days I was moulded into something that I really was not but I guess they have successfully converted me into a person that I know isn't me .

To the world ,I'm a happy innocent and shy princess but they don't know the fire that exist inside me , the fire to do something for those people , for my country ..but I guess this fire will never come out and it will slowly be extinguished with my life .