KAHAPON (BxB)

Chapter 17

(Yes you're right Joey Iskolar is my baby Bank Thiti 😍 siya po ang nasa multimedia part! Hope you enjoy this chapter!)

Kisses

It's midnight and my mind won't sleep.

The thick cloth covering me won't prevent the shivering of my body. The luminance of the light was not enough to comfort me, not enough for me to believe that it's already safe inside, away from darkness.

"You're still up!"

I raised my gaze to see Joey. If I am not mistaken this is his room. The strong manly smell of his cologne clogged into my nostrils.

"I can't sleep!" I answered back.

He walks to the bed at tinabihan ako sa pagupo.

"Akala ko ba sa kidlat ka lang natatakot" pagbibiro pa niya. Kapansin pansin ang puting tela na nakabalot sa kanyang kanang kamay.

"The doctor came, kaka'alis nga lang niya. Take this" at iniabot niya sa'kin ang dalawang tablet.

Hindi ko alam kung anong tawag sa nararamdaman ko ngayon. I hate myself. All this year wala akong ginawa kundi ang mamulubi. Pati ba naman sarili ko hindi ko kayang protektahan. What's the sole purpose of me living, oh wait scratch that I am perhaps barely living, just breathing to be exact. Isang walang kwentang tao na walang ginawa kundi puro kamalian. I could have protect myself in the first place pero hindi ko nagawa. I almost die. Naiinis at nagagalit ako sa sarili ko. Siguro nga kaya ako iniiwan dahil mismong sarili ko hindi ko nga maipaglaban how much more of other people. Mas maganda siguro if the man ended my life, kung natuluyan na ako kanina siguro mawawala rin lahat ng sakit, lahat ng paghihirap at lahat ng kamalian ko. This life is so useless.

"Hey" natigilan ako after Joey tap my back.

"Inumin mo na yang gamot" he said, his voice was deep.

Dahil sa inis sa sarili ay nilagay ko ang gamot on the desk beside the bed. Maybe the man was right my life is really a crap. Siya ang lalaking nambully sa isang nerd na tinulungan ko he even humiliated me by digging up stories about my past, he even tagged me as manggagamit, na ginagamit ko lang si Joey kaya ako lumalapit sa kanya. Damn him. I don't even have the idea na na kick siya sa campus and obviously it was Joey's work.

"Please just take the medicine" he said again his voice was low sapat lang para marinig ko.

Embarrasment bubbles in my throat. I don't no what word should I say or utter at this certain moment. I pity myself alot for being so pathetic. I don't even have the guts to protect myself from dying earlier.

"Caleb!" pagtawag pa niya sa pangalan ko.

"Just leave" I said low enough.

I leaned on the header of the bed. Hindi ko na siya nilingon. He stands and walks on the other side and now we are face to face.

"Look I know you're scared and mad but please" he let out a sigh.

"Please do care about your health, you've lost so much blood and energy, do rest, drink this med come on" pagpapatuloy pa niya.

Hindi ako umimik. Marahil dahil galit ang nananalaytay sa aking dugo at awa ang nararamdaman ko sa sarili ko. I feel so useless right now.

"Caleb please!" Pagtawag pa niya.

My blood rushes.

"Ayaw ko sabi diba? Mahirap bang intindihin yon?" The demon inside of me was clearly winning. I just raised my voice again against him.

"Just leave me!" Dagdag ko pa. I tried my best not to shout back again.

"What's your problem?" Mahina niyang sabi.