accidentally married to you // nct jaehyun (nct series #1)

chapter twelve

"great. just when i thought my life won't get any weirder," i sighed. "magte-tape ako ng we got married habang tine-tape din yung drama, i will be acting all lovey-dovey with two boys and cultivate the chemistry, and i will be acting with my real life husband's girlfriend?!" i exclaimed, pacing back and forth. 

"chill ka lang," yeji attempted to calm me down. "nandoon naman si yoojung sunbae, diba? hindi ba kaibigan mo siya at alam niya yung sitwasyon mo ngayon?"

i sighed. kim yoojung is one of the people in my squad, which kim sohyun is a part of. and right now, yeji and i are inside my condo - yes, the one i rented. pinag-uusapan namin ngayon ang tungkol sa drama ko... not my real life drama! well, that television drama is just a figment of my real life drama, so...

"i can't just count on yoojung to always be there. i read the script. marami kaming banter ni rosé roon, siya yung magiging kalaban ko kumbaga."

"damn, i really don't want to be you," yeji whispered and shook her head. pinanlakihan ko siya ng mata.

"not helping!" i rolled my eyes. 

"alam ko namang makakayanan mo yan. you're professional, hindi ba? just handle that professionally and you'll be fine." 

"paano?" i snapped at her. "i'm pretty sure alam na niya na alam kong girlfriend siya ng asawa ko, na asawa ko si jaehyun, at may nararamdaman ako para sa asawa ko!"

"so what?! just tell her you got over him! sabihin mo spurt of the moment lang yan, and now that you've kept your distance from jaehyun," she frantically advised. "speaking of, may practice ka pa with jaehyun, diba?"

my eyes widened in realization. tiningnan ko ang orasang nasa dingding. "shit! oo nga pala!" i quickly put on my shoes. "buti nalang malapit ang sment dito. una na ako, yeji, just see yourself out!" sigaw ko habang pinapack ang mga gamit ko. 

"geh," sabi lang ng gaga habang nagpho-phone. hinayaan ko nalang siya at tumakbo papalabas, took my car, and drove to sm entertainment. 

"sorry i'm late," i apologized to jaehyun, panting. "dinala ko kasi yung sasakyan ko eh traffic. sorry."

nginitian niya lang ako. "it's okay. magpahinga ka muna, may water dispenser doon kapag gusto mong uminom," itinuro niya ang water dispenser. tumango ako at kinuha ang water bottle ko tiyaka kumuha ng tubig mula sa dispenser. then i drunk like some thirsty bitch. nang natapos na akong uminom at nahabol ko na ang hininga ko, he asked me, "should we start with warm ups?"

tumango ako. umupo siya sa tapat ng keyboard and started hitting notes, then we both did our warm ups. 

"no, this is not working!" frustrated na sabi ni jaehyun. "what happened? okay naman 'to last time, ah."

i shrugged. "i think napansin na nating hindi siya masyadong bagay sa vocal colors natin." kanina pa kasi kami nagpa-practice nung kantang 'yon, but surprisingly, we're both out of it... we cannot hit the notes properly and we cannot hold them long enough, hindi namin macultivate yung emotions na kinakailangan sa kanta. "we were probably distracted."

"yeah, no kidding," he mumbled. i just pretended not to hear him kasi alam ko naman ang tinutukoy niya - my confession. ayaw ko pa siyang harapin o kausapin tungkol doon. this is professional business, and our marriage was just a mistake from that professional business. 

"let's just take a break," i sighed. "maybe we strained our voices too much."

tumango siya at humiga sa sahig. i'm not sure it's clean, pero hinayaan ko nalang siya at kumuha ulit ako ng tubig sa water dispenser. ni isa sa amin walang nagsalita. we both didn't want to. tiniis nalang namin ang malamig at nakakabinging katahimikan. alam kong pareho kaming takot ngayon - baka may masabi kaming maling makaka-offend sa isa, baka may mangyaring pagsisisihan lang namin, tulad noong araw na 'yon...