The Virtue

The Turnaround (II)

(Theme song is is Fight Song by Rachel Platten)

Nova's POV

The thunder cracks through the skies and shakes me from within or what shakes me what Bjorn Ironside spilled out for me

"I wanted you to know this as I don't want a woman like you deserted, even if it is by my own brother" Bjorn continues

A storm accumulates within me and I can feel it in my skin and bones as it shakes me to my core

"I don't know it it was right to come to you Nova, no matter how hard this is for you you have to accept it with grace" Bjorn speaks and I just want him to be quiet

Lies, Lies and Lies

All I ever did was love and all he ever did was lie

"And he wanted to leave you behind with a child so that you are binded to him in some way or the other" Bjorn speaks while he looks at the river

The glacier within me cracks and the floodgates open. I have never felt this within me, a weird mixture of courage and vulnerability

And I get up and run. 

I run as fast as I can as it pours and the cold teardrops tries to drench the fire within but they cannot, little did they know the fire ignited within is meant to last forever

I am exhausted by being the good one, the pretty one, the decent one, the honest one, the smiling one.

I AM EXHAUSTED 

I run as I wipe my tears but the raindrops make my job a little easier, Maybe if I see someone I know I would lie and say they are not tears, it's just rain on my face

The darkness has crept in the skies and within my soul

I have been deceived and bamboozled by every man that I know, my father, Andrew and Ivar. 

As the rain cleanses my soul, my pain acts like a concrete in my spine.

I have lost all my inhibitions, now watch me rise like a phoenix

After entering the castle I throw and tear everything I come in contact of, the maids and servants watch me in fright but I don't care about them or my image anymore

I tear down a curtain in the corridor

I grab the vase and crash it on the wall with my 'fragile wrists' 

"YOU.....SON...OF...A...BITCH" I howl as my wrath turns maddening

I snatch a tray from a maid servant and crash it on the floor as the maid watch in horror while muttering "Your majesty.... are you all right?" 

"NO... NOTHING IS ALRIGHT" I Scream as I punch my fist into the glass sculpture, immediately breaking it

I have lost my mind

I enter the war room and it unoccupied

I topple the chairs and throw them onto the wall in full force, breaking them into pieces

"I TRUSTED YOU... YOU PIG" I screech 

I grab hold of all the papers on the rectangle table and throw them in the fire as rivers of tears stream down my eyes and I lose my breath and fall on the ground

"NEVER EVER AM I GOING TO LET MY HEART BE BROKEN AGAIN. I HAVE HAD ENOUGH AND I AM ENOUGH" I talk to my self as I watch the papers burn in the fire as it glows in my eyes

*Medusa rushes in*

"NOVA!!! MY CHILD!! WHAT HAPPENED?" Medusa says while falling on the floor and hugging me as I watch the flames and shake in anger

My heart has never fluttered in love as much it has fluttered in anger today

"What happened, did he hurt you?" Medusa looks at me while cupping my face in her hands

How do I explain her what I myself cannot comprehend

There will be no explanations only retaliation

I gently take out the small knife from my boot and hand it over to Medusa who looks at me shocked, I grab my hair and ask her, "Medusa, chop it off" 

"No Nova..." Medusa says

"RIGHT NOW" I command

Medusa slides the knife on my hair horizontally, as the long strands of dead brown hair falls on the ground

I don't ever want to be the old me ever again.

Never

The trusting me

The innocent me

The loving me

The old me.

I will make history, on my own.