2 Weeks later:
Podie and his brother were able to pull strings with the boss man
but I still had to put in work to be able to join the gang so it was either I go serve on the block one night or I do a drive by on somebody of course I chose to sell some drugs on the block how hard could it be I saw podie do it all the time plus he was going to be with me
I couldn't believe I was really bout to be in a gang like not no fake bull shit but a known gang
lately I had been spending the night at podie's house cause it was a quiet environment except for the gunshots outside and I enjoyed being with him
I got my stuff and we drove down to the trap to get what we needed
I was so scared I had wore something simple I had on black pants and a yellow crop top and my hyraches and I had pulled my sew in back into a cute ponytail and curled it
when I walked in the door heads turned almost immediately especially the men I put my head down and we walked to the back where boss man was
we passed a room full of prostitutes podie told me that I was kinda the first female to become apart of the gang and not be standing on the corner for prostitution but selling drugs instead
we walked in the room and we seen this man he was really tall and big and was getting head from some girl
it was really distracting to listen to what he was saying while he was getting head
he told me that I had to be very strong cause I'm doing a mans job he then asked podie to keep a very close eye on me
we all know podie wasn't letting me out his sight even if he had to
he told us to go on so we walked out we walked passed that room again and girls were just looking
not at me but podie so I grabbed his arm and looked at them we walked passed the dudes and he pulled me even closer to him with his hands around my waist
we got outside and sat in the car and podie explain to me that I wasn't allowed to get out the car and he would handle everything that was outside of the car
I asked why and he got mad and told me to stop asking questions then he asked if I was sure I wanted to be with him cause if not don't join the gang it was almost like he was trying to get me to change my mind
I don't think he realized it but he was really hurting my feelings
I turned my whole body and looked out the window and started crying
I was really sensitive and he knew that but sometimes I felt like he didn't give a fuck
I felt him put his hands on my thigh and rub it I wasn't sure if he was saying anything because I had my headphones in
I took one out without him noticing and he was talking to me but it was about nothing so I put my headphone back in
we arrived at some house and he told me to stay in the car and lock the door and if I seen somebody open the glove department and lean back
he left the car and I locked the doors I wanted to know what was in the glove department so I opened and seen a gun
I closed it back but got curious and opened it again and started playing with it
I had always been amazed with guns when my dad use to leave his on the dresser
I would play with it because he always took the clip out
I seen podie coming back so I hurried and put it back and went back to where I was
we pulled off and he put his hand back on my leg
I don't know why but it was comfortable the way he rubbed my leg and I didn't want him to stop when he tried to move his hand I would put it back on some freaky shit
we were out almost all night doing nothing but handing out drugs picking up drugs and getting money
but we had about 1000 in one day and we got half which mean we actually made 500 but that was a lot to me cause I had never had so much
I put the money in one of the pockets on my purse after I had counted it to be honest I had fun today I got to see what podie was doing everyday and I got to spend time with him
we pulled back up to the house to drop off leftover drugs and the money
we walked in and the boss man had to talk to me alone
I was confused so I got the stuff and took it in I sat down and he just started asking me questions while counting money
What side of town you from? Weststein but I grew up in Kingston projects
How old are you? 16
Why do you wanna be apart of this family hood the Crips ? Cause I wanna see how it feels to get it on your own and so I can be able to take care of my grandma
He handed me the 500 dollars and told me he would see me tomorrow and to ask podie to teach me something about the ways of a crip
he then called podie in and talked to him I went to the car
did that mean I was apart of the gang
I had really just joined a gang for love what if this was a mistake
I started to over think then podie got in the car
"You got a lot to learn babygirl "
I gave him a hug and he kissed me on the cheek did that mean we could be together
I asked he grabbed my hand and kissed and said yes
I was cheesing hard ass hell all the way back to the house
I just couldn't stop we got to podie's house and I went straight to sleep with podie's arm wrapped tight around me like he never wanted to let go
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