SORRY..... AGAIN: Demi Lovato story

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DEMIS POV

WILMER: I'm not leaving dems your not in a good place
DEMI: okay

My voice was weak I wanted him to leave but I know if he did leave I would do something stupid and I think he saw that. I was having a bad day.

DEMI: Wilmer
WILMER: yeah
DEMI: I I want to kill myself

I looked down at my hands everything has been so much and I didn't know if I could do it anymore.

WILMER: Demi you don't want to do that your future is so bright why dems why don't you want to live
DEMI: it's so hard

My voice cracked as tears streamed down my face.

WILMER: I'm taking you home with me and I'm not leaving your side okay

I nodded too in my head to argue with him. I laid down on my bed and shut my eyes drifting to sleep.

WILMERS POV

Once I knew Demi was asleep I left her to go talk to Diana who I found in the living room.

DIANA: is she alright Wilmer
WILMER: she wants to kill herself

Dianas face dropped and tears welled up in her eyes.

WILMER; could I take her with me I think it will-
DIANA: yes it will be good for her just promise me something
WILMER: anything
DIANA: please make sure she's okay
WILMER: I won't let her out of my sight
DIANA: I'll help you pack her a bag
WILMER: she won't much when we broke up I saved her stuff I don't know why I never could move on
DIANA: she kept a bunch of your t-shirts and she's going to need smaller clothes

Diana saw Demi sleeping and kissed her forehead and starting grabbing random clothing items and neatly packed the in a suitcase. I couldn't help but watch Demi sleep she looked peaceful.

DIANA: every time she sleeps I can't help but think back to her when we first were in the hospital all broken looking
WILMER: I didn't think she would make it last the first night I remember sitting with her telling her to stay strong and too keep fighting
DIANA: she is so strong she's so strong I love her with my entire heart I just want her to be happy
WILMER: she hasn't relapsed I hope it's a just a low right now and she will be okay soon
DIANA: I think she just needs to realize this nightmare she lived is over she living in fear when she doesn't have to but I see how she is with what she went through everyday
WILMER: everyday; I don't know how she did it

Demi started to stir meaning she was waking up and I sat next to her stroking her hair so she wouldn't get scared.

WILMER: hey dems
DEMI: hi
DIANA: babygirl me and Wilmer talked your going to stay with him a while okay I packed your suitcase

Demi nodded sleepily so I picked her up while Diana got the suitcase and we headed to my car.

DIANA: I'll talk to Dallas and Maddie later I already texted Eddie so your all good keep her safe
WILMER: I promise

Demi was in the passenger seat and I got into the drivers seat and we drove off I lived about an hour away and I wanted her to stay awake so she would sleep tonight even though it was early in the day.

WILMER: how are ya dems
DEMI: I don't know
WILMER: any new music
DEMI: yeah I have a lot written I made some Demos
WILMER: can I listen
DEMI: later I'll play them for you
WILMER: okay
DEMI: I want to go to the studio
WILMER: how about we go tomorrow
DEMI: really
WILMER: yeah I think it will be good for you we can go I just have to be at set by 7 tomorrow night for a few hours and you are coming with me so can you make it in the morning
DEMI: yeah I'm going to text oak to see if he's available around ten tomorrow is that okay
WILMER: that's sounds perfect
DEMI: Wilmer
WILMER: Demi
DEMI: I just want to be okay
WILMER: I know you do and you will be we can talk to your therapist get a solid meal plan and get you back to a structured lifestyle how does that sound
DEMI: when I talk with Steph
WILMER: how about today it's almost lunch so she can come around 2 or three
DEMI: I'll call her

Demi calls her therapist and books a home appointment.

WILMER: are you up for going out to lunch or we can eat in
DEMI: can we go out I want to get out more
WILMER: call max just in case so he's with us
DEMI: where should I tell him to meet us
WILMER: where do you want to eat
DEMI: I don't remember what's around here
WILMER: there's a great sushi place so you remember we would do date nights there
DEMI: I remember I forgot about those I'm sorry
WILMER: you have had other things to focus and don't apologize okay never apologize to me understood
DEMI: understood

Demi decided to text max and he agreed to meet us there. I pulled the car into the parking lot and saw max who made his way over. I grabbed Demis crutches and we made our way in. Max went off to someplace nearby so if we needed him when we leave we can call him.

DEMI: can your order for me I don't remember what I like

I nod my head and we were seated Demi just got water and I got a coke when it was time to order I got a platter of different sushi's.

DEMI: I still sometimes find it weird that I can eat as please
WILMER: what do you means Demi
DEMI: I wasn't allowed to eat well I wasn't given anything to eat I was chained up all the time everyone says the physical pain is worse than the emotion trauma when honestly I think it's the opposite because the physical pain will heal but the emotional pain it doesn't go away you can't stick it up or put it a cast and expect to heal in two months it's a lot more time and a lot more effort to heal

I was surprised Demi was opening up to me but I was glad she did because it will help her heal.

DEMI: I think my problem is fear you know I was living in so much fear that I wouldn't see anyone I loved again I miscarried twice well actually once but the second one he stabbed my stomach then hired someone to fix it then then he killed him the cops found the body about a week later and figured out the connection to you know who they didn't tell my parents or anyone because it showed what they were capable of I heard them talking about it.

I was shocked when Demi told me about the babies but I let her continue talking.

DEMI: last night I had a nightmare about losing the first baby well more like a memory and it brought bad thoughts to my head
WILMER: do you still want to kill yourself
DEMI: I have the thoughts but I don't think I'll actually do anything you know toward the end the pain became less I mean they hurt me more but I was numb I felt like there was no hope I broke I let them control me. Wilmer
WILMER: yeah
DEMI: I really want to get better