~Jahsehs Pov
"Jahseh hello? I need to to come to the hospital right now" coolie says in a worried tone
"What? Who's in the hospital?" I asked
"Stokeley, it's not good"
My heart started racing suddenly I felt like I wanted to cry
"What happened is he alive? Coolie what's going on?"
"He's alive, he's been shot just get here and I'll explain everything I'll text you the hospital name and the street it's on" he says
I hung up and quickly got up putting my shoes on
"Where are you going?" Geneva asked
"Don't worry about it, we're officially done when I get back here I want you and all of your shit gone I mean it Geneva. It's nothing personal I'm just not into you anymore" I shrug walking out
We weren't back together or anything, she just came over crying about how she missed me and refused to leave so we just sat here
I've barely said anything to her, and now I'm never going to say anything to her ever again
I got in my car and quickly rushed to the hospital
Life is short, I suddenly realized its to short to not spend with the person you actually want
It's to short to pretend I'm not gay
I'm accepting it.
Stokeley better pull through it better not be as bad as coolie makes it seem
If it's bad I'm going to hate myself for waiting so long to realize the obvious
I can't run from my feelings
I can't run from Stokeley
I need to be with him, I want him
I arrived at the hospital
Asked the lady at the front desk where his room was
when I made it up to his room doctors were rushing him out of the room
He was unconscious
"What happened where are you guys taking him? Coolie what's going on?" I felt my heart breaking
"He's going to surgery again there's something wrong the first surgery they did to remove the bullet they messed something up there was a complication or something " coolie says
"So he's not okay?" my eyes start to tear up
I leaned against the wall falling to the ground
Coolie sat next to me putting his arm around me and rawhool came to the other side
"Doctors said he'll be okay he's just lost to much blood and he might not have any function in his arm unless they do this surgery the right way" Ool says
"They told us not to let him fall asleep but he fell asleep anyways" coolie says
I heard Ool slap him
"That's not the most comforting thing to say coolie" he says
"I like him, I really do he has to be okay" i day quietly
"He knows you like him, we all do it's just kind of a shitting timing for you to just now realize that" coolie says
Yeah I know but Shit happens
I stood up and went into his hospital room
His bed wasn't in there the room looks so empty
I sat against the wall under the window by tank
We sat there for hours talking, they were stress eating but I couldn't eat a thing
I'm not a stress eater
I've just been worried
They finally brought him back into the room
He was still unconscious
"He's okay, we fixed the bleeding and we also found out he couldn't move his arm because we somehow missed a bullet that's never happened before. The area the bullet was stuck in was a area that helps his arm function but he should be fine when he wakes up. But you guys didn't tell us he was shot twice? That's important information" he say
"I'm sorry I was just, so caught in the moment I forgot you guys should've caught that though how the fuck do you miss a bullet in his body" coolie says
How do you forget information like that?
He's right though The doctors should've caught that without them telling them their doctors it's their job to know everything especially if you've already done a surgery on him to remove the first bullet
I felt a so much weight lift off my chest
I felt like I could breathe again
I sat on the chair next to his bed and leaned in setting my head on his stomach holding his hand
"I'll leave you guys alone Hit the nurses button when he wakes up, we need to make sure everything's okay when he wakes up which should be sooner than last time if he isn't awake in two hours at the most come get us right away" the doctor says
I stayed in that position staring at the clock on the wall counting down the minutes
15 minutes went by
Then 30
I kept thinking to myself why isn't he waking up
I felt better when they said he was okay
But I'm still worried that he isn't
Now he isn't waking up
What if something went wrong again?
After about 50 straight minutes of staring at a clock waiting for him to wake up he finally woke up
"Jahseh?" He says in a raspy voice
I picked my head up quickly smiling at him with tears in my eyes
"You came" he said with a faint smile closing his
eyes again
"Of course I came Stokeley how are you feeling are you okay?" I ask
He looked down at his arm and then wiggles his fingers
"I can move my fingers" he says quietly
Another smile formed on his face
"That's a good thing, you feel okay jhit?" Tank asks
"I feel sore, still in pain but not like last time" he says
"I'm going to go get the nurse they wanted us to get them when you woke up" rawhool Says walking Away
"I'm glad you're okay Stokes, please stay okay" I lay my head on his stomach again but this time I was looking up at him
"I didn't think you'd come I thought you were never going to talk to me again"
He sounds so out of energy, I guess I'd be out of energy too if I was shot twice
"That'll never happen I'll always be here, we can talk about this after you're better but Im officially done with Geneva and I want you, I've know that since before we fucked I just couldn't admit it but I'm admitting it now I know it's a terrible timing you're in a hospital bed I just wanted to tell you I want you stokes I'm happy you're okay"
His smile got extremely huge and then the doctor walked in ruining the moment but I'm not going to complain about that
Him being okay is more important than a heart to heart conversation
*** I have like three other books that I also write I just never published them, I might do that after I end this one but I don't think I'll be doing that anytime soon 🙈
Also I didn't edit this so if there's any mistakes just ignore it
