~Stokeley's pov
I just went to the store to get away from Jahseh and buy kehlani more toys even though she doesn't need them she has more than enough toys at home and at coolies house. But still I bought her more and then a few new outfits. Also got her a few things she needs like diapers and wipes
Jahseh moved back a few days ago he's staying at coolies for now because we're already arguing over the fact he was laying next to me and texting Jordan but wouldn't let me see his phone. It's suspicious and I'm not really feeling the love he claims he has
Now I'm sitting in the kitchen at coolies house pretending to make something too eat when I'm really just giving kehlani her puffs and playing on my phone.
"Avoiding Jahseh?" Coolie asks walking in the kitchen with a pizza
"Yeah he's in the room probably texting his little boyfriend" I shrugged
"Boyfriend? I thought y'all was back together"
"He wants to text Jordan so ima let him do whatever he wants I knew him coming back was a bad idea anyways"
I was happy, he was happy. He hasn't even been here for a week we're already arguing and upset
I missed him and everything but was him moving back here really worth it at this point? I don't see us ever fixing the relationship the way we need too
"Don't over react stokes give me my niece we're going out" coolie picked kehlani up
"Where y'all going?" I asked
"To go visit uncle tank in the hospital and tell him how much of an idiot he is, ain't that right lani uncle tanks a fucking dumbass"
Did he really just say that to my daughter?
"Don't tell my daughter her Uncles a fucking dumbass we shouldn't even be cussing around her but what happened to tank?"
"Shot himself in the leg playing with a gun"
That sounds about right. I'll probably go visit him later I know coolies not going to let me go with now
"Now you can talk to jah without having to worry about kehlani I'll be back later"
I don't want to talk, that's kind of why I'm avoiding him coolie you dumb fuck.
"I'm just going to go nap on the couch" I said standing up, any time without kehlani is nap time
I don't sleep much at night because either she's awake crying or I'm away trying to listen for her breathing so I know she's still alive I do it all the time and I'm not sure why. I just worry to much
"No you're going to talk to Jahseh, have you guys had sex since he came back?" He asks
"No what does that have to do with anything?"
When Jahsehs in the mood either kehlanis awake or I'm not in the mood. When I'm in the mood either kehlanis awake or he's not in the mood
We never had this much of an issue before
Another reason him coming back was a bad idea
"Go have sex you guys will be fine we're leaving bye" he smiled and walked away with kehlani
"Wait you need her diaper bag!"
He walked back in rolled his eyes at me went to the room to get it and then left.
"That's why I'm still taking a nap cunt" I mumbled to myself as I went into the living room.
"Coolie told me not to let you do that he told me to come out here and talk to you" Jahseh followed behind me. I hate coolie right now
"Don't listen to him go fucking text Jordan or something I'm going to sleep"
"Can you stop over reacting? Me and Jordan are friends that's it Stokeley. I know how to be just friends with someone unlike you, remember nick? Because I do"
The same argument over and over again. another reason why him being here is a terrible fucking idea
"Nick again Seriously Jahseh? I'm not doing this with you just go back to Orlando we were both happier that way I'm fucking tired of the arguing already you've been here for two and a half days and it's not working so I want you to go back"
He laughed a little and then his facial expression went blank. "You fucking asshole" he shoved me back making me fall Onto the table
"Jah don't put your hands on me again I've never hit you but if you do that again I'm going to bust you in your shit"
I don't know why he's mad at me, he's the one texting other niggas while he's laying in bed next to me and my daughter. I got up and sat down on the couch
"I told you I wasn't going to come back if you were serious about trying to fix us and you haven't even tried but you've already given up what the fuck is wrong with you? All of a sudden your to good to even try?"
Who said I was to good to even try? I was trying I tried he wasn't so it's not going to work
"You gave up months ago Jahseh, you gave up the second you moved to Orlando Because YOU WERE TOO GOOD FOR ME AND MY DAUGHTER THEN YOU FUCKED HELLA PEOPLE I SHOULDNT BE THE ONLY ONE TRYING TO FIX US ALL YOUVE DONE IS LAYING AROUND TEXTING YOUR EX"
Definitely glad coolie took kehlani.
"YOURE THE REASON I LEFT! how am i supposed to know you're serious about us? You've already cheated once"
"Jahseh we've already been through this over and over again, you just gotta trust me and you don't and I don't know that I trust you right now but relationships don't work without trust and if we got none then we aren't anything worth fighting for I don't know what else you fucking want from me like damn do we gotta get fucking married for you to believe me?"
"Are you proposing?" He smirked
Wait what?
He ignored everything I said and only responded to the married thing. I wasn't proposing I was just, I don't know it wasn't an actual question
"Um no unless do you want me too?"
"What if I want you too?"
"Nah that wouldn't be a good idea" I shook my head
"It would be a good idea if we wanted it to be" he sat in my lap facing me.
"Jahseh.."
*** uhm kind of a cliffhanger ig
Finishing it in the next chapter bc this one would be to long if I did it here 🗿🤦♂️
