~Stokeley pov
I woke up laying next to Nick.
What the fuck did I do
I still have my shirt and pants on, so that means nothing happened right? Or maybe it did but I got dressed after but that's unlikely
"Nick wake up" I say said quietly
"Mhm?"
"Did we?"
"Did we what?"
"Ya know, Did we fuck? What happened and why are we in the bed together"
"I gave you head and we went to sleep"
"Oh" I lifted up the blankets, I have boxers on but no pants. Maybe I shouldn't of gotten head from him but Jahseh doesn't need to know. Head is head
We were both drunk and I don't even remember it
"You also said we should go on another date but if you don't remember the head you probably don't remember the conversation either"
"Yeah definitely don't remember that"
I agreed to go on another date with nick? Wow I should really stop drinking it's no good for my memory or judgement
Going on a date with nick would not be a good choice, it definitely wasn't the first time
There shouldn't be a second
"Didnt think so, I wouldn't of gone anyways because of Jahseh"
He's lying, he wouldn't of brought it up if he didn't actually want to go on the date
Jahseh May be his friend, but he still wants me or he wouldn't of given me head.
Maybe the alcohol is too blame in this situation, but maybe it isn't
"Seriously?" Jahseh says opening the door
Uh fuck he isn't even supposed to be here anymore
I figured everyone would've left
"We didn't do anything chill" I said as I put my pants back on
"Lyin ass we aren't friends, I'm not your friend or his both of you can die" he said as he walked away
"Damn he's mad" nick chuckled
"Nigga ain't shit funny"
"You the one who wanted head so I don't know why you're mad"
"I was drunk as hell I don't even remember getting head from you" I finished putting my clothes and shoes back on
He stayed quiet and it got awkward so I went into the front room by everybody else
I don't know how these niggas don't got hang overs a few of them left but the rest are just in here chillin, eating food and playing on their phones. My head hurts bad as fuck
"Stoke your an idiot" coolie laughed
I don't even know who's house this is or any of their names besides Jahseh coolie rawhool and nick
Somebody needs to take me home
"I'm guessing Jahseh told you" I rolled my eyes and sat down on the couch
"Yeah nasty ass I told him"
"Jahseh it's too early for you" I looked over at him, he scrunched his face up and then looked away
"jAhSEh iTs tOo eARly fOr yOu" he mocked me
Almost everyone laughed at him
"All y'all niggas childish, coolie take me home"
"aLl yALl Ni-"
"Jahseh fucking stop, you're being childish for what? I'm not doing this petty shit with you anymore you dragging this on and I'm done, officially done with you with this situation In general just go back to when I was nothing more than coolies friend"
I realized I started ranting for no reason, I just need to sleep I'm irritated but I don't want to fight with him. I don't have the energy anymore
"Be done then Stokeley, i don't want too go back too when you were coolies friend. I want too go back to before I even met you my life was much better then"
"Yeah okay you've said that already jahseh and we both know you don't fucking mean it. You won't admit it but you know you want me as much as I want you. Nick didn't change that, rawhool didn't change that, none of these niggas will change that. No amount of liquor will change that. Stop ignoring the truth it's only going to hurt you more than accepting it" I sighed
"Coolie take me home now"
"Good idea" coolie said standing up
"No wait a second" Jahseh came and stood in front of me and just stared at me for a moment. I can't tell what he's thinking
Sometimes you can tell by the look on his face but he has the most emotionless facial expression I've ever seen him have
Is he planning my death or what
"What nigga" I'm not sure if he was going to say anything, didn't seem like he was going too
He sucked his teeth and looked away then grabbed the sides of my face and kissed me
"Fuck I hate you" he mumbled still looking straight into my eyes
"Do you really tho?"
"No but I wish I did, it'd be a lot easier"
"Man y'all niggas entertaining, watching y'all is like a tv show" some boy laughed
"Omar shut up"
"Um anyways im gonna go, unless you wanna try and talk again?" I looked back at Jahseh
"Later, I want to get some sleep before I say anything I'm not sure of but call me later"
Is this progress? Just when I was about to officially give up he wants to change his mind?
I'm not going to jump to conclusions or assume he's going to get back with me now or anything but I'm hoping that's what's going to happen
We're going to talk, and everything will be okay
"Okay, I know we aren't together but I love you jah"
"Okay are you ready to go orrrrrr" coolie said awkwardly
"Love you too stokes" he gave me a half smile and then sat down
"Yeah come on"
I forgot I wanted to go home for a second
I forgot I asked coolie to take me home but I'm probably going to get some sleep as soon as we get to the house so that time goes by faster and I can talk to Jahseh.
**another boring chapter but I'm officially back so better chapters coming soon
