~Stokeleys pov
"Y'all niggas are messy as fuck get y'all asses up now and come to the living room" coolie said loudly
I looked over realizing I was naked next to rawhool
Shit I slept with rawhool last night
"Rawhool go to the living room ima sleep" I covered my face with the blankets
"Nope both y'all niggas, I want you in the living room in one minute or were going to have problems" coolie said
"Fine get out I gotta put clothes on"
Coolie closed the door
I got up and started getting dressed so did rawhool
"Whatever coolie says Jahseh can't find out" I say
"Definitely not" rawhool agreed
"Okay let's go"
We walked into the living room, Jahseh and nick are here of course
That's awkward but okay
"Rawhool im not going on a date with you anymore" nick said
"Damn What'd I do?"
"You slept with Gazzy, Jahseh And Stokeley all I'm about a week that's hoe behavior" nick shrugged
Well I guess that's out there now
"By the way I would be mad at that but I slept with him too" Jahseh looked at me
Did he just say something to me without an attitude for the first time in a few days?
"Let's sleep with him together"
They did bring up a threesome before
Might as well try it now that we've all slept together anyways
"I'd be down" Jahseh shrugged
"I'm not nick just made me feel like a whore" rawhool said giving nick a mean look
"Maybe cause you are a whore" nick laughed
"Okay that's not why I called all y'all niggas in here
By the time everyone leaves I want everybody to be able to talk like civilized human beings without ending the talk in an argument and the first person so raise their voice is deadass getting shot in the knee, right nick?" Coolie looks over at nick, nick nodded and pulled out a gun
Okay so these niggas serious, let me not yell
"I was raped cut and beaten and jumped out a window broke both my arms and and I'm supposed to be scared of a lil nigga with a gun?" Jahseh looked around then laughed
I knew he wasn't going but I've been shot and I'm kinda scared of that lil nigga with a gun
"Jahseh We all knew you wouldn't be scared but keep your voice down anyways or get shot" coolie shrugged
"Now Stokeley and jahseh I want y'all to talk about things now either in here or in the other room but no yelling or arguing" he added
"Since coolies going to make us do this, Jahseh I feel like you overreacted to me going on a date with nick" I shrugged sitting back
"I feel like you're an ass" he rolled his eyes
"Well I feel like if you'd stop calling me names when I talk to you this would go faster"
"You're right I'm sorry"
I think this is working now
"I'm also sorry I went out with nick, and lied to you I didn't mean to hurt you and I'm also sorry to nick because I shouldn't of put you in that situation" I say lowly, I hate apologizing
"Now that apology was believable but I still don't trust you stokes"
"I don't blame you jah but I'm going to do everything I can to make it up to you even if we don't end up together in the end I want us to be friends"
He got up and gave me a hug
"Friends for now, we'll see what happens later"
"See now was that so damn hard?" Coolie says
"Okay now Jahseh rawhool And Stokeley, stop fucking either please. Nick give rawhool a chance he isn't going to sleep with anybody else" coolie looks at nick who's still holding a gun like he's ready to shoot
"Fine but if he hurts me I'm shooting his monkey lookin ass"
"Jah can we talk in the other room please?" I ask
He nodded so I stood up and we walked to my room
"I miss you" I pull him into another hug
"I was mad and didn't even see that I feel more pain without you than I ever did with you, something as simple as hugging you makes everything else go away it feels like the rest of the world is just gone and I know this doesn't mean anything but if you give me another chance I promise I won't do anything to hurt you ever again" I hugged him tighter than let go
"Would you of kept seeing nick and lying to me if I wouldn't of seen the texts?" He asks
Do I lie or tell the truth, I mean lying is what got me here but the truth is going to ruin me even more
"Honestly? Probably for a little while but I don't know why I even went out with him I can't explain it I really just don't know"
"Then I'm sorry stokes but I won't give you another chance, not now anyways I opened my heart up to you completely even after it was broken by Melly, I was devastated and insecure I hated myself for letting him do that to me but you pulled me back and the entire time even after all of that my heart was wide open to you I couldn't even imagine ever going out with anybody else because you were enough. But clearly I wasn't enough for you because you needed more so go on dates Stokeley live your life figure out what it is that you truly want I can't promise I'll be here when you figure it out but I hope you find someone that makes you happy enough that you don't even look in another persons direction" he said sadly
Tears started falling out of my eyes and hearing the pain in is voice caused more pain to me then imaginable
"I love you Jahseh, I'm deeply sorry I made you feel you weren't enough for me because you're everything I've ever wanted but I understand. I'm glad we got to talk but is it really over between us?"
"I love you too Stokeley but If it's meant to be it'll be, if we end up together again then we know it was real but if not we can be friends forever" he leaned over and kissed my cheek
I didn't realize before how much I fucked up
I didn't think it was really over before and I still don't but it seems like he's given up on me
