Symphony

10

I rested my head upon his chest as he gently swayed to the music.

The song still being symphony, i lifted my head up meeting his eyes finally breaking the deafening silence i had left him with when he had asked that question,

  That question that had one too many answers.

"I had a twin"

He stopped his gentle sway his face softening

"You don't have to talk about it if you're not ready, you can tell me when you want to. If you even want to"

He says quickly, I smiled softly shaking my head

"I want to tell you"
I paused before hesitantly continuing

"I need to tell you"

He nods taking my hand and walking us over to the sofa we had recently gotten.

He switches off the music and sits down besides me taking both my hands in his and gently caressing his thumb over one

"We were inseparable, born December 5th, him at 4:36am and me at 4:39. We did everything together until three years ago" my throat almost closing as i speak

"On December 5th, It was our 14th birthday. We went to bed so excited to be a year older, I remember I couldn't sleep so i climbed into bed besides him. He had groaned before hugging me close....his words to me that night were so simple" my voice cracked tears forming in my eyes

"He had whispered a simple 'goodnight lil sis i love you' then the next day came"

Asher squeezed my hand reassuringly noticing how difficult this was for me

"I was up first which never happened, i called his name to try wake him up and when that didn't work i gently shook him. That didn't work either"

Tears rolled down my cheeks at this point,

I was opening up a wound that had been closed for years and finally telling someone

"I sat there for five minutes thinking he was just playing, then I realised he wasn't. I kept trying and trying begging him to wake up but he wasn't. I wasn't able to speak the only reason my dad came up was because of the loud cries coming from me"

Asher wiped the tears from my cheeks but more escaped

"Next thing i knew i was being pulled off his body" i paused

"His heart had stopped, he was already gone before the doctors could do anything. My parents, They blame me.....i blame me"
I mumbled looking down ashamed

"No"
His voice was stern

"You didn't do anything wrong,i spent years blaming myself for my parents death they wouldn't of never been in the car if it wasn't for me and for that i told myself it was all my fault"

I look into his eyes watching as he rants on

"But it wasn't, life is something short it may seem long but you never know whats going to happen you make your path as you go through life. People come and go some people are too good for this world so god-or whatever, takes those people away, the people who are left behind the ones who have to deal with that person being gone are strong they're good too"

I listen taking in his every word

"You didn't do anything just like I didn't do anything it was their time and one day, in this short life we have, it'll be our time too so thats why while we are still here we need to do everything we can to live life to the fullest"
He says confidently

"And you julianna grace leblanc have so much life to live you just have to stop being so hard on yourself, you're amazing. Before you, before our friendship"
he paused before continuing

"Before us. I was shallow, i locked my real self away and didn't let anyone see the real me. I've lost so many people in my life and then you came And I finally found it the thing i've been subconsciously looking for"

"My constant"

He lifted the back of my hand to his lips placing a light kiss on it

"My symphony"

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