Symphony

24

"i know i've just never seen him act that way"

I had got in yesterday evening thanks to hayden who currently stood making me pancakes while my parents were apparently away? 

"did he seem um dangerous?" hayden asked in almost a whisper and i sat up straight

"no no! he just seemed distant like something was playing on his mind and i was just making it worse" i defended him out of instinct i guess

Hayden turned the stove off sliding a pile of pancakes across to me and sitting down opposite

"look annie i know im not exactly the best person to be telling you what is right for yourself  but from what you've told me it sounds like he is hiding something and yes there is a possibility he could not be but you can't take that chance, that risk of there being something he is keeping from you that might end up hurting you"

i listened intently to his words pouring syrup on my pancakes

"i know...but he -its hard to describe its like i've only known him for a little while but my instinct is to believe him and protect him when i can" i explained slowly eating my pancakes

"do you love him?" hayden asked breaking the silence and i looked up at him from my pancakes while he awkwardly stared down lifting his head to meet my eyes "its okay if you do"

"i don't know i'm confused a big part of me wants to love him and trust him but there is this tiny fraction in me that just doesn't  and" i paused fidgeting with my fingers"im scared to love him, im so scared that he is just going to be like everyone else in my life and leave me and i know thats just not what i want hayden ,it really isn't i want him in my life... i need him"

hayden's hand fell on top of mine

"sounds like you love him alot does he love you?" 

i nodded slowly in reply 

"then you'll be fine, your love for each other is far stronger than some little thing he may be keeping from you and maybe give him time...don't press him for answers about the way he is acting just yet let him realise he can trust you and tell you what is on his mind"

I smiled softly nodding then looking at the time and jumping up 

"shit i've got to go thank you hayden seriously"

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I sat alone in the cafeteria for the first time in what feels like forever

I took out my sandwich and slowly began to eat not really that hungry so i set it down staring at my chipped nail polish on my hand,

Many people surrounded my table and when i picked my head up the whole basketball team and their little entourage sat around me asher besides me i turned to him questionably raising a eyebrow

"annie meet the team, boys this is annie" asher introduced "my girlfriend"  

A chorus of heys were shared, a few questions thrown at me before everyone began their own separate conversations

I turned to asher who was already looking at me a apologetic smile on his lips 

"what is this?"  i asked gesturing a hand around the table

"my team" he said "look the way i acted yesterday was plain stupid and i shouldn't of shouted at you like that or let you leave at that time its just like you said a bad day...it was my parents wedding anniversary i guess it bothered me more than i thought it would" he apologised and i immediately felt bad 

"im sorry i shouldn't of asked all those questions it was stupid and if i knew about yo-" i rambled on but he placed his hands on either side of my face stopping me from speaking

"you have absolutely nothing to apologise for you got that?" 

I nodded hesitantly and he smiled

"i really want to kiss you right now" he whispered "like badly"

"then do it" I laughed and his lips soon met mine in a small but loving kiss.

{who we trusting? asher? hayden? i donT KnoW mYseLF}