Always - Shayne Topp X Reader

Chap 7- Thinking About Her

(A/N This chapter gets a bit heavy and has darker and more mature themes, please don't read if you feel uncomfortable, I don't go into detail about it but please make sure you are alright. It is never okay for anyone to harm you or do something against your will. You are amazing and you only deserve the very best -Indium)

Shayne's POV

It was late and most people had head home from the office by now, not many of us remained. Especially since we were leaving tomorrow for Winter Games which I was excited about, but it also pained me. I had to get more and more used to what I was feeling and I had to accept it. I knew how I felt about her and I didn't want to admit it. I needed to talk to someone and I knew it was going to be Noah. Holding this inside was making me crazy, I needed to talk about my bet with Damien and my feelings. Maybe Damien was right, I did need to go on a date and even though I want it to be Y/N it shouldn't be. She is my friend, my co worker and Sohinki's sister, I shouldn't have feelings for her. I cut out of my thoughts by a tap on my shoulder. "Hey I heard you wanted to talk to me?" Noah smiles at me sitting down next to me, he's face drops slightly when he sees my confused face. "Are you alright man?"

I sigh running my hand through my hair. "Maybe? I don't know. It's just..." My voice trails off as I sigh. Noah raises an eyebrow at me, I rub my forehead unsure how to begin. "I don't know what to do about Y/N." 

Noah's eyes widen in realisation. "So I guess you were sober enough to remember everything you said." I nod at him as he pauses looking inquisitively at me. 

"There's more to it then that." He raises an eyebrow at me waiting for me to continue. "Damien made a bet with me to go on a date by the end of the month." 

Noah nods at me slowly. "I mean you are pretty lonely and single lately." I sigh facepalming.

"That wasn't the point." Noah shrugs waiting for me to continue. "I don't know if what I'm feeling for her is real. Also, don't worry it gets more complicated." I pause biting my lip thinking about that night and how close we came to kissing again today, at least it felt like we did. My body was screaming at me to close the gap but I just couldn't. "We kissed while dancing together and I have to admit I liked it a lot. I also think we almost kissed again today. I don't even know how I feel or if what I'm feeling is real."

Noah gave me a smile as I look at him slightly bewildered, why on earth is he smiling? "Well,the fact that you are so scared about how you feel shows that you care." I lean back in my chair slightly, astonished, I guess he was right. "Plus, Courtney told me about the punishment and I've seen you smiling all day. You like her man." I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding, he was right. "Hang out with her more, be around her. I'm not quite sure how she feels, maybe she likes you. That would be a risk you'd need to take, you'd be putting a lot on the line for her." I nod following what he was saying, I wasn't sure how she felt. Part of me thinks she was disgusted when I apologised to her but part of me also felt that she leaned in also. Does she want me as badly as I want her? 

"She's worth it. She's perfect, she's an angel." Noah smiles at me before his face falls slightly. I raise my eyebrow at him slightly confused. "What's with that?" I say gesturing to his face.

Noah grins slightly chuckling to himself. "Well that all started out as cute but then it became disgustingly cute." He stands up grabbing his bag looking down at me. "You've got it bad man." I smile slightly knowing he's right, but do I really have a chance with her. "I'll see you tomorrow for Winter Games." Noah waves at me before walking out of the room. 

I pick up my stuff getting ready to head home, most people had already gone by now. It was getting late and we had an earlier start tomorrow to head up to the cabin for Winter Games. I was looking forward to the road trip and I really wanted to sit next to Y/N. Maybe it was a bit juvenile but the way she made me feel... Damn. I try to shake the thoughts out of my head but fail giving up and heading home with everything on my mind.