After seeing Ethan and all his friends walk away i release my shoulders and sit down, he knows what Ethan said was just out of anger Grayson had no right to blame Ethan he knows it was his fault, he really should start to lock the door and he also knows he needs to apologise to Ethan because seeing him look like a kicked puppy made him realise that all the feelings he's been trying so hard to get rid of are only getting stronger and he's not only hurting Ethan but he's also hurting Candy his 'girlfriend'.
He sighs and wipes his face with his back hand and slowly walks to his room again, his heart races and his feet feel heavy. How is he going to get himself out of this one? He's fucked up big time and he can't help but imagine all the outcomes this could go. Each of them ending up in Ethan requesting a new roommate or him stabbing Grayson with the nearest pen.
"Candy i have to end this" He announces walking through the door and leaving the door wide open for her.
"Yeah whatever cool like i care asshole" She slams her shoulder on her way out and scoffs slamming the door shut.
He sits down on his bed and sighs rubbing his temple with his hand, how does he start the apology he can't just go and say sorry Ethan would never buy it and he wouldn't accept it, he's not even sure if he'll ever forgive him. The amount of stuff he's done to Ethan isn't very polite persay. He hasn't been the politest nor has he but it's like even when they start to be nice to each other for one second something burns them and he hates it. It's almost the universe doesn't want them to be friends.
With each passing moment he's left alone imagining all the probabilities that could happen Ethan stumbles through the door turning the light on and he can see his puffy eyes and tear stained cheeks immediately and his heart aches at te scene in front of him, he knows this is all his fault that he's crying if he wasn't such a dick he wouldn't be in this state right now. "Ethan" Grayson mumbles sitting up Ethan scowls at him giving his a very harsh 'what' "I'm s-sorry, that i blamed the situation earlier on you, it wasn't your fault it was mine i should've locked the door or left a note telling you to not come in, and i'm also sorry for shouting at you in front of your friends and i'm sorry for grabbing you like that and finally i'm sorry for being such an asshole to you" Grayson apologises watching Ethans every move and he's scared he hasn't moved at all he didn't react he just stared at the floor holding his hands tightly and sighs.
"Okay" Ethan breathes out and Graysons stomach flips, he wasn't expecting forgiveness but he was expecting something back not just an 'okay'
"Okay?" Graysons blood starts to boil
"Yes Grayson okay, i'm forgiving you but i'm not apologising. I have nothing to be sorry about" Ethan stands up stripping out of his clothes and laying on his bed.
"I-i know but i would have liked something back other then 'okay'" Grayson stands up and turns the light off shuffling back over to his bed.
"What would you have expected back? Hm? because i'm curious what you wanted back Grayson?" Ethan sits up tears are falling from his face but you can't see in the dark
"I don't know Ethan okay? I don't normally apologise you should be thankful that i even feel bad for acting out" Grayson raises his voice a bit
"Thankful? It's common courtesy Grayson, you should do it because it's polite i don't have to be thankful for your half apology, everyone knows you should say sorry. It doesn't even make me feel better" Ethan hisses and Graysons tired of Ethans shitty attitude.
"Do you know what Ethan, i spent all evening thinking of how this would play out, i wasn't expecting an apology i know that, but disregarding my behaviour earlier i should not be treated like this. I tried to apologise but it seems like you obviously don't want it so fuck yourself, when you're in a better mood to talk this out you can find me at Bens i hope i don't see you until you have something to say" Grayson walks out of the building tears falling down his face, he isn't going to Ben's he doesn't want Ethan to find him there and he isn't prepared to tell Ben he likes Ethan.
He opens the two doors and walks into his favourite bar, seeing all his favourite people and seeing his best man Jonah. He smiles walking up to him and bro hugging him, he orders two shots ready to drink away his problems.
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and I should just tell you to leave 'cause I know exactly where it leads
