the bond in bloody roses

Night Twenty-Six

Night Twenty-Seven:

A/n: Hmmmm... I seem to be having trouble with chappie orders and keeping them in order... *smiles nervously* Anyways~!! Please ignore the errors made! Please enjoy~!

When Mikami offered me cover so that I could see Akatsuki, my mind was in such a muddle. Things were going by so fast. Things were happening. Yes, I was healing, but there was something that had changed in my family dynamic. I couldn't explain it, but it was evident in the air. It was in the way they looked at me. The way they acted around me. It was confusing, but I had to go on acting like everything was still normal, even if it wasn't.

Which is why I couldn't decide what the right thing to do was. Could I really deceive my family in such a way? Could I really do that just to fulfill some selfish desire of mine? What would happen when they went back? I wasn't foolish enough to think that I could be satisfied with the amount of time Akatsuki and I would have because I knew I never would have enough. I would always crave more. I would want more, and in the end, I would only end up hurting us both.

It wasn't only that that was in the back of my mind, but I couldn't help but to think of the retributions to come if we were found out. It would land us both in real trouble. Me, for fraternizing with an enemy. Him, for the same. And my brother for allowing, and covering for us. The punishment could further extend to my family. The innocent ones. They would pay as well, even if they are the ones totally innocent, and I just couldn't do that to them.

However, when I thought back on the short moments Akatsuki and I shared, I couldn't help but to feel a little fluttering in my chest, and my stomach. A small beacon of hope would tell me that it could be possible. Maybe, just maybe, I could give in to my selfish desires, and just do what I please for once in my life. Not worrying about the consequences of my actions, and just being with the one that set my skin on fire whenever, and wherever, he touched me. I could be selfish, and be with the one whose kiss still burns my lips, and electrifies my body whenever I think about. I could be selfish, and be with the one whose fangs I could still feel penetrate my neck.

Whenever I thought about Akatsuki, I could still feel the yearning. The pure joy I feel being around him. The calmness he makes me feel. And for once, I want to be selfish. I want to take the risks, and throw them to the wind. Because, in my mind, I want to be near him, and feel that warmth he seems to emanate from him. Even if I know it's wrong. Even if I know we are supposed to be enemies, I still want to see him. I want to be near him, and feel his warmth. I want to feel his hands touch me, and make me feel alive with his kiss. Even if I know it's wrong, I still can't stop myself from wishing that. Because nobody else makes me feel the way Akatsuki makes me feel, and I don't want to let that go...

"Wait, so you're telling me, you want to see him?" Mikami's emerald eyes looked at me in surprise. I blushed, looking away as I rubbed the back of my neck.

"Y-yeah. I'm still waiting for the Association to either approve or reject me, and everyone else is busy. I've been wanting to see him, and was just waiting for an excuse to see him. An opening, ya know?" I looked back at my brother, who looked at me with a masked expression.

He sighed heavily, setting down his book he was reading with his eyes closed. He kept his eyes closed for a moment longer, and for a moment, I was geniually afraid he had changed his mind, and I would be left to my own devices. However, a moment later, Mikami opened his eyes, and looked at me with a contemplative look.

"I did promise you. Change out of your pajamas, and I'll take you to see him." I felt my heart flutter in my chest, and I couldn't resist the urge to tightly hug my brother. However, the action just seemed to make him flustered."Yeah, yeah. Just hurry up, and get dressed." I nodded, releasing my hold on my brother, and sprinted to my room. I could feel my excitement building, and I didn't want to waste another moment of time.