because of you

part three- "outburst"

ok is it just me or does mackenzie comment on like all of her friends bikini pics saying "omg your body😭" or something along those lines. like come on bruv have you looked in the mirror also stop just stop please it's kinda weird.

KENZIES POV

it's been a few days since that car ride home with johnny and things around the orlando's house have gotten awkward.

i try to steer clear of him but somehow he always finds away for us to cross paths.

it was the middle of third period and i was zoning out and doodling in my notebook. as i was drawing eyes on my awfully ugly bunny a piece of paper hits me in the back of the head.

it read

"hey are you going to the party tomorrow? ;)"

i looked around me only to see one of johnnys teammates brandon smirking at me and i nearly throw up in my mouth.

"not if your there"

i respond on the paper and throw it back.
he makes a fake sad faces then writes some more.

"oh come on babe i'm really good in that department."

i roll my eyes and don't even bother to write back i just crumple the paper and throw it in the trash.

finally after what felt like an eternity of being stared at up and down by brandon the bell finally rang and it was lunch.

i find brynn and maisy and we go out to the back of the school like we always do. maisy pulls out a pack of cigarettes and offers me one which i take and light up.

i'm not normal. i haven't been for a while. some people may call me a freak for doing what i do. but i don't care. it helped me cope with my moms death in ways no person ever could. it's become a part of my life and i can't stop now.

JOHNNYS POV

"johnny!" i hear someone yell my name as i'm walking down the hallway into the cafeteria. i turn around and come face to face with my period one english teachers.

"uhh hey mr. dawson what's up?" i ask scratching the back of my head antsy to get to lunch.

"look i'm sorry to interrupt your lunch but i have reasons to belive that mackenzie ziegler is living with you right?" he asks and i switch my behavior into a more tentative manner.

"yes she does why? is there something wrong?" i ask concerned

"well not necessarily but she has been skipping many classes and isn't putting any effort into her school work. we would like her to get a tutor to help her do you know anyone who could-" he starts and i interrupt him "i'll do it. i'll tutor her." i say and he nods walking back to his office.

just then i see hayden shoo me over and i hold up a one of my finger signaling him to give me a second.

i hadn't seen mackenzie all day and i needed to tell her the news and make sure she's staying out of trouble.

i head out the back doors of the school and over towards the stones area.

i pass many kids hitting bongs, making out, and offering me weed. finally i find the person i was looking for. she was with two other girls but as soon as they saw me they laughed and walked away.

"what the hell are you doing?" i ask mackenzie as she rolls her eyes at me.

"what does it look like?" she scoffs and i grab the cigarette throwing on the floor and stomping on it.

"hey!" she yells at me "look mackenzie your a great girl who has great potential i can tell. you shouldn't be doing this, you think it's helping you, but it isn't. please stop hurting yourself." i say calmly and her face starts to soften. just then she snaps out of it shaking her head.

"no! it does help me. you have no idea what i've been through johnny. it's so hard for me sometimes and smoking helps. so don't tell me what i can and can't do." she screams walking away before she turns around briefly "oh and go to hell"

that went well.

KENZIES POV

after lunch i couldn't bare to go back to classes. so i didn't. i left school and went to the only place that i feel safe.

it was a club off of main street that my mom used to go to. all the workers know me and let me in without an ID. whenever i need to escape that's where i go.

today i needed to escape.

i walk into the club and over to the bar.

i grab and bottle of tequila and drink while flirting with older men and catching up with the employees.

i felt so gross whenever i came to this bar. i hate it here. but my mom loved it. and it's a good place to get drunk. which is the only thing i seem to be good at these days. 

JOHNNYS POV

i arrive home from football practice to a panicked lauren. she was pacing  around the house grasping her phone.

"what's up lo?" i say casually walking  in the house.

"oh johnny hi! have you seen kenzie? she left school early and i can't find her. she hasn't responded to my texts and i'm really worried." she says

"don't worry lauren we'll find her." i reply calmly and she shakes her head "HOW?" she screams.

"well just track her phone." i say and pull up the app mom installed on our phones so she can see where we are at all times.

"see it says she at some club on the corner of main street and sheridan i'll go get her. if mom asks where we are make something up ok?" i say and she nods quickly typing something into her phone.

i hop in my car and drive towards the club. the boys and i all have fake IDs from sophomore year when brandon rowland's older brother got them for us. so getting in shouldn't be a problem.

i wait in the line and hand my card the the bouncer. he nods and i walk inside, the smell of liquor burning my nose and lungs.

i walk around looking for kenzie when my eyes lock on a girl dancing up on the table.

it was mackenzie.

she was holding a bottle in one hand and combing her hair with her fingers and in the other. tons of old guys circled around her watching her thirstily.

i could tell she was uncomfortable. but she didn't get down.

MACKENZIE POV

my mind was all blurry for most of the night.

i had been drinking. then smoking. then flirting. then drinking some more.

somehow i ended up on top of a table halfway naked.

i was dancing to the music forgetting about johnny and everything else's wrong with my life when i feel a pair of hands pick me up and carry me over the shoulder.

i can tell by the scent who it is. johnny. i'm busted.

some old guys who were watching me start booing and i just hold in my barf.

"put me down." i somewhat slur and he laughs setting me down in his car and buckling me in.

"i can do it myself mr" i say and he nods putting his hands up in defeat and getting into the drivers seat.

"you are so stupid." he says and i nod in agreement.

sofie speaks
kinda like this chapter
but what's up fools
sorry i haven't uploaded
in a while