I'm just SCARED, And One Shots

hmm

This is where virgil is still not liked by the light sides (except Patton, Patton is too sweet to hate anyone....and you know it).

Roman POV

Thomas was having a mini panic attack so I was sent to make virgil stop making Thomas panic. It's all his fault I dont even get why he cant just leave all of us alone. I storm up the stairs of the mind palace to virgils room when I hear a strumming if a guitar and then it fade out. I knew that it must be one of the other dark sides because Logan and Patton are still with Thomas. I sent them a mental message to come just in case I needed help, but I wouldn't after all I am the prince. Patton and Logan popped up in the hallway and started to make their way to me as I turned and started to walk closer to virgils room
The strumming started again this time with more intent. It was easier to hear as I got closer, then I heard a voice that I would never forget.

How long have you been smiling?
It seems like it's been too long
Some days I don't feel like trying
So what the fuck are you on?

I stopped in my tracts as I heard that voice... it was beautiful, Logan and Patton got closer and heard it too. We all looked at each other before nodding and making our way towards the sound...that ever so happened to be Virgils room.
We opened the door as quietly as possible and what we saw will never be erased from our memories.

I think too much, we drink too much
Falling in love like it's just nothing
I want to know where do we go
When nothing's wrong

It was virgil sitting on his bed holding a miraculous guitar that had white strings and the rest was a black purple and pink galaxy with stars sprinkled on it.

'Cause all the kids are depressed
Nothing ever makes sense
I'm not feeling alright
Staying up 'til sunrise
And hoping shit is okay
Pretending we know things
I don't know what happened
My natural reaction is that we're scared
So I guess we're scared

The words sunk in as I finally focused in the lyrics. Is that really what Virgil feels like.

No I can't really keep lying
'Cause I've been scared all along
I'm getting sick of sleeping in
While all my friends are popping pills
And I don't think that they're wrong

Is he talking about the other dark sides?

I think too much, we drink too much
Falling apart like it's just nothing
And I want to know where do we go
When nothing's wrong

'Cause all the kids are depressed
Nothing ever makes sense
I'm not feeling alright
Staying up 'til sunrise
And hoping shit is okay
Pretending we know things
I don't know what happened
My natural reaction is that we're scared
So I guess we're scared

A small smile danced in Virgils lips.

I won't deny it 'cause you saw what it was
I can't deny it if you won't give a fuck
So I'll sew it up
You know I am so in love

The song came to a close as  virgil got up pulling his hair out if his face and sighing. Getting up from his bed and going over to his desk at the side of his room. He sat down with a thump as he grabbed what looked like a lyric page, crumpled it up and throwing it in the trash can. I looked over to see a bunch of other lyric pages in the trash too, so many that it was now over flowing. He groaned and banged his head on his desk snapping me out of the daze I was in. "That was horrible" he said to himself shaking his head while it was still on the desk. "I'm such a disappointment." He said as he leaned back in his chair.

He sighed again before saying "What was I thinking, they would hate that, i need to make a diffrent one, one that's happier" after a long pause he looks down and says " Who am I kidding, happy is just not my style."

I looked over to see Patton with a few tears running down his cheeks with his hand covering his mouth, staring intently at something, I follow his gaze to see him staring at Virgil, he had tears running down his cheeks too. I felt something that I hadn't really felt before, I felt bad not just bad I felt...horrible, I always blamed him for stuff that I knew he didnt have any control over.

"Hah" Virgil laughed causing me to look up at him. "I guess I'm crying again, at this rate I'll need to put on more foundation" Virgil said wiping the tears from his face. "I'll think about that later first I have to find a song for Patton, Logan and Roman." There was a smal pause before he said "or maybe that can wait till after I have a mental break down." Virgil said plopping down on his bed and curling up in a small ball.

I never notice this before but Virgil is small, his jacket covers him completely it's almost like a giant blanket. I was so distracting thinking about that, that i didnt notice Patton getting up from his spot the the ground and opening the door more.

Before I could say anything to stop him he ran into Virgils room and hugged Virgil. Virgil yelped as he was not expecting to be touched, but soon returned the hug while stuttering "P-patton, h-how long h-have y-you b-been there." Virgil said still hugging Patton. Logan then stood up adjusting his glasses answering Virgil. "We have been here long enough to understand that you far exceed our expectations as a guitarist." Logan said making Virgil jump a little. Feeling awkward that I was the only one still crouching, I stood up and said " I have to say emo, you sound really good." Virgil seemed to be in disbelief as he just looked at all of us. "I-i um w-well uh w-what you s-saw doesnt mean anything." Virgil said pulling away from Patton and pulling at his sleeves. " What do you mean, you are lonely, but have no fear for we are here to cure you of your loneliness" Roman said striking a pose. "S-so um you heard the s-song." Virgil asked looking away
"Indeed, if I may be so inclined to ask a question, may I?" Logan asked addressing Virgil. "U-um sure" Virgil said. "Who was that song about?" Logan asked.

Virgil seemed to be a bit taken aback. "Well, i-it was about all of the personalities." Virgil answered "hmm, may I ask what parts?" Logan asked. "W-well Patton is always smiling and happy, but I know he cant always feel like that so I guess I was trying to address that, and you are always looking for the logical outcome of things and that can be really hard but you handle it really well, but sometimes it cant be put onto a logical format and that can be stressful. The rest is pretty much me and fear....