Loving the Enemy

Kyle-14

Dear no one,
I went six days without taking my medication and the results were fucking horrifying.
-Kyle

To: Principal Harris
From: Kyle Green

      Let me just start by saying I'm sorry Mr. Harris, regardless of the circumstances I should have never been to your office in the first place. You see I can start by telling you how I've been diagnosed with maniac depression aka bipolar disorder since I was like seven and had to go see a child's psychologist when I started bullying this girl. Her names Olivia. You know Olivia, the girl with wild hair and pretty eyes, you can't miss a girl with a smile like hers. Maybe that's too off-topic and too personal but in order to tell you how I ended up in your office I should start off from the beginning.

You see ironically the year I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder was the same year I found out all these things about her; Olivia, and being the immature kid I was who didn't know how to deal with his emotions, I wanted to hurt her. And I did, in every imaginable way, I knew how that was legal of course, well to an extent. But just because it is legal doesn't make it right, I'm an American after all, so I guess I'm supposed to have morals.
And usually, I do I've never been a violent person never gotten into a fight, never been one to cause any problems besides with this one girl. It's always been, Olivia. And she's so perfect, she doesn't have a single worry in the world because I was carrying all of them for her, or at least that was what it felt like at the time. It felt like I was stuck with this burden of a secret that no one knew but me and I resented her for it. I resented her mere existence because she was the problem. The reason I am the way I am. I can't go a single fucking day without taking my medication before I start to have these...episodes. I went six days locked in a room with the one person I genuinely hate more than anyone else in the universe without my medication. Who wouldn't fucking spazz? God I know you're probably thinking I'm a psychopath and shit I wouldn't be surprised if I was, but I just have wanted to be normal for sooo long you know?
I want to be able to wake up and not have to rely on a pill to act like everyone else. I don't want to like hurting her.

My twin sister Madeline locked me and Olivia into your office hoping we'd come out holding hands and singing a musical about how there should be peace on earth but instead it turned completely hectic and very ugly very fast.

I've never physically put my own hands on a female and I never would but I have caused Olivia pain physically and mentally. I know you didn't ask to know about this and this is the most infuriating essay you've probably ever written and I'm probably only telling you this much in order for me to get to a thousand words but shit I don't want to be expelled. You know I'm one of your top students. I've always don't work and I don't have much of a history with getting into trouble unless it has had something to do with Olivia. It's like she just does something to me. I feel like she's my trigger. I just see her and I'm reminded of a lot of things that I wish never happened. Mr Harris have you ever just hated someone so much that you couldn't put it in words? You probably haven't because you're normal too.

And normal people aren't filled with hatred. Mr Harris, I'm a toxic piece of shit that would be better off flushed down the toilet. I'm also a little drunk, is that bad to say? I'm sorry. I write better when I'm drunk. But I promise you my hearts sober. I know this isn't 1000 words but I feel like this Hennessy is making me say a little bit more than I want to, whatever you do just don't expel Olivia, she didn't ask for this, neither of us asked for this but life gave it to us. And we're just living it because that's what we're expected to do, right?

A/N
This is Kyles essay to his Principal on what happened, what do you guys think on his drunken thought in writing?

Next up is Olivia's letter stay tuned and I'll be back soon.

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