Just Hold Me [ merlin x arthur ]

3 - your not alone

arthurs pov .

sure , its good to be back , as the days will pass , and ill still question as to how i got here , but , i have more important things to think about at this point . like im - im the king , is that really true ? father is dead ? its my turn for responsibility ? does this mean i take control ? perhaps - after what merlin told me . that he was a scorer - all these years , the fact he used his magic for good - maybe those with lives that were once magic themselves , can now be spared . that is if they are as kind as merlin . but who knows . im back , but , its not the same .

its late at night ,  as im sat in my chambers , staring at the fire as the flames danced in the fireplace , so many things were running through my mind , especially that , im the king , my fathers dead , all i have left is . . the kingdom ? , though are they even to be trusted at this point ? not wanting to sound selfish but , this is alot to take in , i dont want to believe hes gone , uther , my father , showed me what it was like to be king , i know , ill never be like him , but i still loved him .

my mind trails to gwen , i cant lie anymore , i love her , but , not the kind of love i used to feel towards her , shell always be in my heart , for sure , as a friend . but it seems as if she has eyes for lancelot .

but now that i think about it , im in this to grieve alone . . theres no one i can turn to .

its one to think that ive lost so much , in a short amount of time , my parents , trust in my sister - the hurt only crawling its way up my back , as i felt a single tear run down my cheek , shaking my head as i lent forward , setting my head into my hands , elbows sitting on my knees . i have to be strong .

its not until i hear a small knock , slowly tilting my head up towards the door , and i see a familiar face , as his heads poked through the crack of it , as the light of the fire shone on his face , a shadow outlining his head && those big ears , causing a smile to slowly make its way onto my lips ; i wasnt alone . i had merlin . .

" you alright , sire ? " he mumbled softly , as he stepped in .

in spite of everything , there was one person who wouldnt leave me , despite how stubborn he is , whod never betray me , whod be happy to serve me til the day he dies . whos sacrificed his own life for me . . the one who i could trust with my life with , my friend , the one i couldnt live without . the one i could be myself around , forgetting all my stupid responsibilities .

" merlin , yes , im quite alright - "

" you dont look it , you prat - " his lips tucked into a smile , , one i loved - thatd cheer anyone up .

" who gave you permission to call me that - " i mutter , looking up , as he was closer , and our eyes locked , somehow i couldnt lie to those blue hues , suddenly caught off guard . 

" okay - maybe im not - "

merlins gaze softens , letting out a sigh " . . you know i worry - " his tone seemed calm , as he knelt down in front of me . about to say something .

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merlins pov

i hated the thought of the prince being alone , as id only ever try my best to be there for him , sure there was many things i wanted to say to him , but , i could only dream - knowing arthur , hed end up in the stocks for the night if i hadnt of come to check on him , because the next think i know , his ocean blue eyes fill with tears . he didnt need to say anything , i knew what it meant .

setting a hand to his knee , i look up at him , watching his moves , as he tries to avoid my gaze " hey - its - its okay - "

the blonde shook his head , as i set a hand to his cheek , causing him to look at me . " your not alone - theres so many people that would do anything for you - because your the king , you - you have to trust yourself before anyone else - "

" m - merlin - " he mutters , causing my heart to ache , he just sounded so . . lost . as i only frown , shifting closer

" . . thank you - " he says , as his head lulls forward , myself catching him , setting hid forehead to my shoulder , giving the back of his neck a reassuring squeeze , it wasnt a hug - but itd have to do . one was to say i felt my ears heat up , feeling the others breath on my neck .

/ thoughts ? i need a storyline tho -

sorry its not that long