The Fall of Holden Hidalgo [Completed]

Chapter 37 - Fall

Chapter 37 - Fall

(POV Holden)

FALL. The fall of Holden Hidalgo under the hands of Helena Cassandra Madrigal, the only daughter of Zara Madrigal.

I surrender and there is no going back. I have already fallen madly in love with this insane girl and there is nothing I can do to stop this.

Helena tenderly smiled at me after she reached her climax. Humiga siya sa tabi ko at hinagkan ang aking mga labi. It was a gentle kiss at first, but her tongue suddenly explored the inside of my mouth as if she wants to discover her own taste.

"I love you, baby," she murmured while our lips are locked.

Bahagya ko siyang itinulak at tumingin sa mata niya. I am not sure if I want to hear those words from her. Her confession is more than terrifying that her vicious crimes. Siguro dahil natatakot ako na malaman na hindi pala ako ang mahal ni Helena kundi ang kapatid ko na si Harland.

"Helena, I am not Harland. My brother is already dead."

"But you look so much like him---"

"I am not Harland! You can't use me para buhayin ang alaala ng kapatid ko! You just have to accept the fact that we are two different people!" sigaw ko sabay bangon sa kama.

Kung kanina ay mahinahon ako, ngayon naman ay binalot ako ng galit. I was being blinded by her care, by her love and by her attention.

Helena does not love me. She is after Harland after all.

Bumangon ako sa kama at lamabas ng veranda. Sa unang pagkakataon, tinanggap ko sa sarili ko na mahal ko ang babaeng ito. Nawala sa isip ko na hindi siya obsessed sa akin, si Harland ang una niyang minahal, ang una niyang kinabaliwan. I am just a reflection of Harland to her.

Lumapit sa akin si Helena at niyakap ako sa likod. Hindi ko siya magawang harapin dahil sa galit na nararamdaman ko. Galit dahil hindi ako ang tunay niyang mahal.

"I love Harland and I was crazy about him. He was my world, my galaxy, my universe," sabi ni Helena habang nakayakap sa likod ko at wala man lang siyang pakialam kung wala siyang kahit anong saplot sa katawan.

"The first time I met him was in a small private concert in England. I knew it right then that I will follow him everywhere. That is the start of obsession with your brother."

She used the term obsession. Mukhang may idea siya na isa siyang obsessed fanatic ng kapatid ko.

"Lahat ng concerts at gigs niya ay pinuntahan ko. I even spent loads of cash just to have backstage access. Masaya na ako sa ganun, sa kakarampot na attention na binibigay sa akin ng isang rockstar. Until Harland personally invited me for dinner."

"Like a date with a fan?" tanong ko habang nakatingin pa rin sa malawak na kagubutan.

"We went to a fine dining restaurant and for the first time in my life, I felt so special. A date with a rock star was the happiest moment of my life. Being so close with your idol, with the man you fantasize."

"Si Harland ba ang unang lalaki sa buhay mo?"

"Yes, he was. I gave myself to him. An unforgettable night."

"Alam mo na ginagawa ni Harland 'yon sa ibang babae."

"He loved me, Holden. Mahal ako ni Harland. He treated me like a special girl, hindi katulad ng mga flings niya."

"You were living a fantasy, Helena. Harland only had a girlfriend twice. Isa noong high school, isa noong college. The rest are all short time flings to him. Kung minahal ka niya, my brother should have mentioned you even once."

"Bakit hindi ka naniniwala sa akin? Hindi ba ko deserving maging isang girlfriend ng isang Harland Hidalgo?" tanong ni Helena na biglang bumitaw sa akin.

Because you are delusional, Helena...

Pero hindi ko sinabi sa kanya 'yon. Harland is already dead. Helena's obsession towards him are now directed to me. Her so called love to me may just be a representation of what she really felt to Harland.