⏭️Crush X Reader Oneshots⏮️ ~Book 1~ [Finished]

18~🥀~ Crush x overthinking! Reader

Title: Time Spent.. -- Horribly..

Warning: angst, overthinking. Proceed to  the next/another chapter if it can't be handled.

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(Y/N) POV

The same feeling of emptiness engulfs me emotionally.. once again.

I'm being overdramatic again..

'No (Y/N).. dramatic or not...your feelings are valid..'

voices of my friends echoes through my void of a mind...

I don't matter..

'You matter to us..'

I'm worthless and a waste of time..

'You're important..'

...

'I love you'

Drip...

Why do those words always get me...

Plip...

I don't get it.. what is there to love about me..? I'm literally.. a spoiled brat who's difficult to handle or befriends with...

Ding!

Grabbing my phone under my pillow, it was a message from (C/N)...

(C/N) 10:39 pm
-Hey hun! How are you? :)

staring blankly at the phone.. my eyes focused on the name..

'hey hun!'

...

Plip...

I tiredly twist myself to look at my ceiling.. nothing to distract me... Atleast I get to talk to myself.. unhealthily... At moments like this where everything is shit, my self talks ends badly.

This is why... I don't want to be alone with my thoughts...

Ding!

(C/N) 10:50 pm
-(Y/N)? Are you ok?

I wiped my tired eyes to see my phone clearly, typing my reply to atleast not leave (C/N) hanging just to worry.

[ No... I'm not fine... I..|   ]

I stopped my fingers to undo what I wrote.. I don't want him to worry.. he dealt with my bullshit millions of times already.. I don't want to burden him anymore.

[ No... I'm no|               ]

[ Aayee, doin' gud. Just restin' in bed like the lazy ass I am] send

(Y/N) 10:55 pm
Aayee, doin'gud. Just restin'in bed like the lazy ass I am