Mine to keep~ [USSR x READER](under editing)

Latvia..

USSRs POV

I walk down the hallway with my hands inside my pocket.."fuck you And your stupid opinion that no one will care UN." I murmured as I kept walking.
God damn it.. if only nazi could disappear.. but whaddya know? He can't apparently, unless I kill him... this thought made me chuckle as I reached my room door.
I sighed twisting the door knob as I entered.. "must've been a deep convo huh? Also you guys should REALLY have an escalator for stairs.. it's kinda tiring.. walking inside a mansion with long as hallways..and long stairs." She says as I replied with a chuckle. "What do you mean long convo? It only lasted for like 1 minute or so." I rolled my eyes.
She giggles as I leaned by the door.

"Anyways.. come here sit by me! Let me ice that bruise for ya!" She chuckled. "No need [Y/N], I appreciate you being kind and all but" she then cuts me. "Cmon Soviet... I insist..." she smiles and patted the bed as a sign for me to sit next to her. I smiled and walked over the the bed and sat. She turned to her left and started patting my cheek, making lots of 'ows' and hissing sounds to escape my mouth.
She rolled her eyes. "Come on, is it that bad that you have to say ow every time?" She giggles as she pressed it on my bruise.

"ow ow ow ow!" I hissed. She then took the ice off my skin as I gave her a childish look.
"You look cute with that face" She says giggling. "Oh shut up.." I say. "I'm gonna go spend time with the others Soviet is that ok with you?" She says.
"Of course.. but I have to come with you" I say

She shook her head. "Come on Soviet, ill just hang around with America and japan... or the countries downstairs.. besides.. I never met all of them.. this could be a nice sign for me to actually know some of em!" She says.
I sighed as I nodded. "Just stay away from third ok doll?" I say.
"Yessaru!" She says smiling as she left my room. I sighed and shook my head, my smile then turned into a frown..I can't move on about Third... I can't risk [Y/N] by the hands of Third... I don't even want to speak to him, well of course I would try to avoid him..
Ever since ww2 ended.. I can't risk HIM starting it again..

I pinched my nose-bridge, as I tightened my grip on the ice pack as my hand began to freeze. I took my hand off the pack before it started turning numb.
I took my hand of my nose and sat on my desk and opened the small drawers inside..
When I did. I saw an old picture back in the old days when me and latvia got married.
My mouth opened but no words came out. All that's left we're memories of her...

If only I wasn't a huge dick back then.. I could've still had her... maybe Third was right..
I just left her for nothing.. I let Russia, Belarus and Ukraine down.. they can't forgive me anymore.. it's all too late... I gulped and tried to close the drawer.. but another frame stopped me when I looked on top of my desk. There was a frame of all of us in it..
My eyes widened as I reached for the picture and stared at it..

~FLASH BACK~
"Mum? Why do we need to dress formally? Are you guys having another wedding again?" I heard Russia asked as Latvia tied his little black bow tie. "It's a family picture for all of us to keep as remembrance Russia! And no mummy and daddy aren't gonna have a second wedding silly." She says poking his nose.

"Stupid necktie.." I mumbled trying to tie it but only ends up as a disaster. "God damn it." I cursed.;"do you need help there love?" I heard her angelic voice asked.
"No. I'm fine.." I lied as I tried to fix my tie. She chuckled and helped me.
"There.. all good easy right?" She giggled. "No fair! You did it like magic!" I say as she just laughs.

"Russia, BELARUS! give me back my red rose!!" Ukraine chased Belarus and Russia around the house. "Chase us fi—" but before the Russia could continue both of them bumped on my leg. "HAH! "Yelled as he snatched his rose back.

"Children Don't play around! You'll get your clothes all dirty!" Latvia yells trying to dust Russia and Belarus . I only chuckled "I can tell this day is going to be great." I say smiling at Latvia as she returned it with a hug along with the children.

"I love you Soviet." She says.

~flashback end~

I started to pant heavily before screaming and throwing the frame of the desk smashing it on the ground as I placed both of my hands on my head. I bit my lower lip until it started to bleed... if only I could return back to the old times... If only I could fix the mistakes I did.. if only I stopped her from leaving.. WHAT would have happened if me and Latvia have been together and I never had been an alcoholic? What would have happen if I never met [Y/N]? WHAT IF Latvia were still here but [Y/N] never came?

AGH! TO MANY WHAT IFS, GOD DAMN IT!
Dear god... I'm too confused with everything... all I wish is Latvia were back and everything became fine.. EVERYTHING IS FIXED. No more problems.. no more fighting is needed... I just hope to god Latvia could come back soon.. I miss her.. [Y/N] just acts like her... her sweet kind attitude.. caring to everyone... I miss her.. too much.. And I also wish for me to pay my son for everything.. even for baring with me when I'm such a dick sometimes..

... I wiped the tears off my face.. "I'm pretty sure you've found someone else now haven't you?".. i
Asked my self. "Why do I care now... she's gone.. I know she won't come back after what I did... I should just focus on [Y/N]'s safety for now.." I say smiling..  "but Latvia.. if your out there.. please.. show yourself to me... I need you... I don't understand this relationship anymore..." I looked at my ring on my ring finger.

"Soviet?" I heard [Y/N] with a sad look on her face at the door..
Fuck has she been standing there all this time?!