Roots Before Branches

Okay

Agonising dreams of summer days that always seemed to end,
The blood in my veins winces at things I wish I said.
I hope you know all the memories are true,
I could never, ever forget about you.
What we had didn't just die,
Remember, there was no funeral.
It didn't just up and leave.
We both tried to be reasonable.
This love flew; it was free;
It's how it's meant to be.

And after all that we've been through,
You just say,
"Okay".
And you have no idea how perfect that was to hear,
Hurting you fed my fear.
I didn't expect a smile so strong after all I said was so wrong,
I've been feeling this way for so fucking long.
To hear you say "okay" made me feel okay.

I painted some awful pictures in my mind before that moment,
You stood above a dying version of me, my chest was opened.
Your smile was tainted by my heart's residue in your mouth,
I'd wake myself up to a deafening shout.
And I know none of that will ever or could ever come true,
It's just nice to have that reassurance from you.

And after all that we've been through,
You just say,
"Okay".
And you have no idea how perfect that was to hear,
Hurting you fed my fear.
I didn't expect a smile so strong after all I said was so wrong,
I've been feeling this way for so fucking long.
To hear you say "okay" made feel okay.

Boy, do I have a story to tell.
I glanced down one rabbit-hole and I fell;
I fell harder than I ever have,
I fell further than I ever have.
Am amorcito under the summer skies,
I never knew love could be lacking in lies.
Boy, do you get me.
Boy, is this scary.
I think I'm ready.
Tell me you love me.

"Okay".

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